Tuesday 28 December 2010

2010

Hey folks..

Here's my annual montage video of the past year.. Lots of pics and stuff.. Hope you enjoy.

Remember Gazzy in Tazzy will be back at the start of 2011.

Catch ya soon!

Sunday 19 December 2010

return

I'll be back in the new year.. I haven't forgotten about the blog... I will return January 2011.

Monday 4 October 2010

Where Are You??

So, I feel a bit ridiculous.. Having this blog just shows me how little I have achieved in such a long time.

I haven't done a blog update for a while mostly because I haven't been really trying. I'm not saying I've just given up.. but I'm not going at it like I was when I started the video blog.

I have learnt to swim since my last video update, which has been great. And a HUGE thank you to my friend Hannah who's been my mentor and supporter of my swimming adventures.. and most patient. The first day at the pool and I will admit.. I was a bit scared. Never learnt to swim and was not comfortable in the water. On day two I challenged myself to get my head underwater and I did.. and I've been to the pool 6 times and I now have the stroke happening.. Just working on turning my head out of the water to breathe while not stopping. It's been a challenge.. but I know I can get there.. I'm loving it!

So.. I've also had the Gay-Man-Flu for like the last ten days. Finally feeling better today.. hardly even coughing and not wheezing.. so that's a plus.

Anyways.. I just wanted to say that I know the blog is still here.. and I know I need to get back into some sort of fitness regime... but I'm going to start using the blog just for stuff instead of the massive focus I have on weight loss.. because I feel stupid having a blog about trying to loose weight when I'm barely trying...
I started 2010 at 144.4 kgs and it's now 9 months later and I'm 143!! I've gone up and down over the last 9 months.. but  the end result is.. 1.4kg loss in 9 months.. and that's not something worth blogging about..

So, until I feel like I'm back on track and feeling that dedication again.. or I force myself into it.. I'm going to blog about other stuff..

For starters, our massive Halloween party is only a few weeks away.. and we've been hard at work getting everything together.. building, buying, blood staining.. it's gonna be a great night..

So.. I will be back..
Gazzy

Monday 6 September 2010

Halloween Video Invite

Thought I'd share this as well..

The party is invite only, so if you haven't got an actual invite from us.. I'm sorry.. Feel free to beg.. Bribes may be accepted..  lol.


Sunday 22 August 2010

Webisode 5

Here it is folks.. Webisode 5.. Hope you enjoy.. A new webisode in a couple of weeks..

The weather has been shitty lately.. but it's going to get better soon... so if you have any ideas for weekly challenges that I can get out and get active with I would love to hear them.. so comment here, on facebook or email me.. Actually looking forward to the warmer weather for a change..




thanks.
Gazzy

Wednesday 4 August 2010

Webisode 4

Hey guys

Sorry for the delay.. Here's Webisode 4, hope you enjoy. Comments and ideas are Always Welcome..








Gazzy.

Friday 23 July 2010

The Book of Love

Hey guys

This isn't a video blog - the next webisode of Gazzy in Tazzy will be online next week...

I heard this song for the first time a couple of days ago and I just loved it.. And I felt the need to make this video of my family through the years... TO MY FAMILY - I hope you watch it and know how much you all mean to me.. and TO EVERYONE ELSE.. if you watch this, I hope it reflects the universal feeling of love and family and makes you remember the highs and lows of life in your own family.

It really is a beautiful song.. Enjoy.

Gazzy. xoxox

Tuesday 29 June 2010

Webisode 3

Hey all

This fortnight's webisode is split into 2 parts because YouTube has time limits placed on what you can upload. Sorry about that.. So, watch part one.. scroll down and watch part two.. :P I'm sure I didn't need to write that, but still..








As always, comments and suggestions are VERY welcome. I would love to get some ideas for Weekly Challenges. Set me a challenge and I'll attempt to do it.. :) Physical challenges, mental, creative, food/cooking related, social challenge.. WHATEVER..

Even just leave a comment to say you've been watching and if you've been enjoying...

Anyways folks, I hope you enjoyed. I'll be back in a couple of weeks for the next one!

THANK YOU

Gazzy

Thursday 17 June 2010

Webisode 2

Hello everyone...

Before you watch webisode 2.. I just want to say thanks for the AWESOME amazing response to the first one. I guess some of you reading could really identify with some of the stuff I was saying and everyone's positive response has really been overwhelming.

I hope that you enjoy this second webisode as much and I'm sorry for the delay. I think however that fortnightly videos are going to be the best way to go because I want to keep it as entertaining as possible.

So, here it is.. Enjoy...



Well, again, please leave a comment. I'm really struggling with ideas for weekly challenges; they can be social, personal, artistic, physical challenges - anything. I will consider any idea put forward.

Thanks again Everyone.

Gazzy.

Thursday 10 June 2010

Week 2

Hey guys




So, week 2 & 3 should be online by Tuesday or Wednesday. So, please check back then. I want to keep it entertaining and interesting for you all.. so I think fortnightly videos will have more content.. Hope you understand.

Still looking for ideas/suggestions on Weekly Challenges? Anyone?

So, I'll be back soon.

Gazzy

Wednesday 2 June 2010

It's Here....

Well guys, the time has come...

This is my attempt at a Gazzy in Tazzy webisode and reboot/kick start to this whole lifestyle change. I hope you enjoy it.. but please remember, I'm not a professional so if the audio/video is not perfect, I'm sorry... :) I've done my best.

Please enjoy...




Links to various pages on Facebook and YouTube for Mason AND Storm Fit Fix are in the links panel on the RIGHT.. Check them out! :)


I hope you enjoyed my kick-start webisode.. Please leave a comment below and let me know what you thought. Love to get some ideas for Weekly Challenges - starting next week - or anything at all. I'm eager to hear your ideas and Thanks Again for watching and reading and I'll be back soon! :)

Gazzy
gazzyintazzy@live.com

Monday 24 May 2010

Prison Break




I wasn't going to post anything until the video was ready to go (hopefully next week).. but I've been away too long...

I wanted to talk about some stuff. I was talking to someone the other day and they asked me why I wanted to loose weight. I laughed.. thinking, isn't it obvious - I'm fat! And then I thought about it some more...

I want to loose weight for many reasons. Firstly, for my health. I don't want to die young. Secondly, Vanity. Everyone wants to feel attractive right? And the third reason was a bit deeper than that... I feel trapped by my body.

My weight has become a hard shell that I'm cocooned in. It's affected my self confidence, it's affected my ability to physically move, it's affected the way I feel about other people, about social situations, about so many different things. Some are visible to the outside world around me.. some are visible to people I allow inside the walls.. and some are only visible to me.

The challenge ahead is about breaking down those walls and accepting the world outside. The challenge isn't only about weight, size & fitness.. it's also about becoming the person I want to be and learning and growing and all those things that Life is about.

They say confidence is key.. for me, that key could unlock some heavy bars and free me from the very critical self I've become.

That's really all I wanted to say.. I know my blog posting have been erratic and sparse.. but this new video blogging has really got me a little motivated about the whole thing. I'm really putting myself into this video and I'm being very honest and open with it. I'm hoping there are some surprises in there for people.. and some emotion and some humour. I hope you will all check it out when it's up and running..

I'm trying to put together a list of various 'Weekly Challenges' that I can do. I want them to be a variety of nutrition challenges, physical challenges or challenges that get me out of my shell or self-rewarding.. If you have any suggestions at all.. No matter how silly they may sound or outrageous.. I will consider anything...

OK.. So, please, leave a comment with suggestions or comments about anything and everything.. And, keep checking back.. :) I'll be back soon. I promise.

Gazzy

Thursday 13 May 2010

It's Still Coming Soon....




I know I posted the preview a while ago now.. but rest assured.. the Gazzy In Tazzy Webisodes are still coming... I'm aiming for the first one to uploaded on June 4th.. which is the One Year Anniversary of the blog and will serve as a "reboot" (as is popular in Hollywood nowadays). I'll keep you posted if there is a delay...

Gazzy

Wednesday 14 April 2010

The Food Diary



So, I agreed that this food diary was a good idea... and I still do. For the first week I am just recording my normal diet to count how many calories I'm actually eating. OMG... I hate calorie counting and love it at the same time. I had no idea the amount of energy I was consuming. I mean, I'm not eating something crazy like 5000 a day or anything. They say an average person of my height trying to maintain their weight should consume between 2500-3000 calories a day. But for me, wanting to loose weight, I should be eating 2000 calories a day as a MAXIMUM. Well, basically... I'm eating too much. I'm eating too many calories. I still want to record a weeks worth of average eating before I start modifying my diet. I want to have an average daily intake. That might seem silly to people, because I'm supposed to be trying to lose weight... but I think it's important to know where you are and what you're doing wrong. So, this week is like an audit of calorie intake.

But what I've noticed so far is... that during the day, not so bad. Coffee intake is pretty high and having it white & one every time isn't the best. But once it gets to dinner time.. most of our meals are pretty high calorie and the portion size is too large. Not to mention, I have the awful habit of evening munchies. I just gotta have something to eat after dinner...

I would hate to have started counting calories while still drinking heaps of soft drinks! Thank god I've already given that up!

Calorie counting is nothing new. Lots of people have done it and most people are successful while doing it. Any of you try it? Success??

So, I need to get cracking on my video blogging. Now I've done a little promo, I guess I should get filming and stuff. I have an idea of what I want it to be in my head but it's a bit hard to do when I'm the camera man & the subject... but I'm working on it... Will probably still be a week or maybe 2 before I get the first one out to you...

Well, so what's been doing? Well... I haven't had much work lately, so I've actually started cleaning! OMG! I've even made the bed every morning for over a week! OMG! I know, everyone is in shock! It's a shocking state of affairs really!

Also, our oven is on the fritz. We notified the real estate last Tuesday and reminded her last Friday... it's now Wednesday and still nothing... So, tomorrow, I think I'll be making another reminder call! It's a pain in the ass, cos we have to cook everything in the electric fry pan - or god forbid the deep fryer. We've even boiled pasta in the electric fry pan. How good are we?? But, yeah, oven and hot plates.. the whole thing just doesn't work. When we switch it on all the power in the house goes off! Crazy!

AND... Glee is back! I was so excited... I put my phone on silent, closed the curtains, turn up the volume and was glued to the TV screen for 45 minutes. Was wonderful. Glee is wonderful! Is drama, comedy and musical and everyone should watch it... Well, maybe it's not everyone's cup of tea but I love it!

Alrighty... I'll be back soon with my week of calorie recording results and of course it's weigh in day tomorrow. Based on my calorie intake and lack of exercise program, I'd put money on a gain tomorrow... Big Money.

But I will be back soon. Good Night All.
Gazzy

Saturday 10 April 2010

CHECK IT OUT

Sorry I've been absent for a little while, but I've been thinking a lot about everything... not just weight issues but about the future & all that jazz. And now that I have some idea of where I'm going and what I want to do... I'M BACK!!!



So, what have you decided? I hear you asking... Well, for starters, I've decided to apply for university for the mid-year intake of the Education course so I can become a primary school teacher! It is something I've thought about doing for quite a while, but there was a part of me that thought I couldn't do it... but I know I can. I want to do something that is rewarding and satisfying personally and something I can work at so I can have a career instead of a job. Also, having decided quite a while ago that I wasn't going to have my own children (I could adopt/surrogate - for those of you that might have to ask how!), I thinking teaching might fill that void in my life... plus, students are better than your own children because they're 'Business Hour' children!! Right?! LOL. So, Meagan, don't make other plans for Halloween - YOU PROMISED!!!

Well, that's the future... What about now?? Well, for now I'm gonna keep working towards those lifestyle changes that I want to make in my life. Today I started a Food Diary (on the very good advice from some lovely ladies - you know who you are ;) So, I'm not going to modify my diet greatly for this week, because I'm curious to see how many calories I actually consume without thinking about it too much. But, I believe that to loose weight I should be consuming approx. 2000 calories a day (Lesley, if you're reading this, please correct me if I'm wrong). I'm hoping that if my calorie intake for this first week is really really bad then it might shock me into making some basic diet changes. I'll keep you posted on that...

And in other blog news... CHECK THIS OUT:::::




Music by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) - FANTASTIC STUFF.

I'm going to attempt to post weekly video/webisode blog things soon... Any suggestions, ideas or comments on the blog (word or video) please leave a comment.. I'm happy to hear from everyone...
Hopefully after the first week or so of doing these video webisodes I'll be a bit more in the swing of things and they'll become a little more creative... Keep watching - and comment any suggestions, please.

Alrighty folks, I'll leave you with all that & I will be back soon...

Gazzy

Sunday 4 April 2010

I Shall Return

Hey guys

I know it's been a while... I haven't been away and things are alright... just the comments that were left for me on my last posting made me think a lot about some personal stuff and what I want and need to do. And, I'm not saying I have all the answers and maybe there are things I should do that I don't want to do... but maybe I can work around some of my obstacles.

There was also some criticizing of David... And, I don't know what to tell you. He has a strange way of doing things sometimes... And maybe he's not as supportive in my weight-loss goals as he should be... but he does love me for who I am - and can I ask for much more? He is probably more addicted to the junk food than I am... but it doesn't effect his weight (greatly) - I know it effects his energy and health - but he doesn't see it and won't admit the damage it is doing to him...  

To The Mutant - Your comments and description of what he should say and the encouraging things that should be coming from him really did make me think. And to be honest, I'm still thinking.... It seems unfair of me to change my lifestyle and attitude towards food and exercise after 5 years of being together and expect the switch in his head to flick over as well... and I do want to give him the chance to be that person you described... But I also don't want to wake up in another 5 years time and be at the same place I am now... So, thank you for your encouraging words and for making me 'THINK' - because sometimes I really need a push to examine things.


Kerry & Meagz - You know David... Any suggestions?


So, anyways... this is a really quick post to let you all know I'm still alive and kicking... I've got some plans for the blog that I should have ready in the next month or so... so keep checking back for that... This post is really to reply to the comments and let you know I will return soon... Don't abandon me just yet....


Oh.. and there has been a couple of weigh ins since I posted last time... 


18th March = 144.7 (0.3 kg loss)
25th March = 144.7 (no change)
1st April = 143.9 (0.8 kg loss).... which was also the March Result weigh in... which gave March a disappointing 0.5 Gain... and a 0.5 loss for the year thus far... 

3 months in and only half a kilo gone - now that is motivation to get back on the fuckin wagon!!!


So, I shall return soon... I promise...
Comments, Suggestions and any feedback is always welcome!! 
Gazzy

Tuesday 16 March 2010

Emotional Eating

So, as you can tell from the title... I want to talk about emotional eating. I've touched on this before when I've felt the need to binge on crappy food after a bad day but during those 5 days off last week there was such a dramatic difference in motivation and self control that I was a little bit shocked on how extremely my mood can alter my commitment to my health. Crazy. While away for those few days, it wasn't hard for me to not over-indulge and to choose better options - I was more active and felt good and maybe even a little more confident. On the drive home from Launceston, David and I talked about how I can change habits and more forward in a more active & healthier way. It felt like a whole new kick-start, like I felt when starting this blog... And the next day, I went to work... my first caller was a bitch. And for the 8 hours after her the stupidity of people and the rudeness and arrogance of these customers was incredible. I also had some financial issues that were pressing and needed to be addressed... and basically - it was a bad day... and I broke and binged. We had KFC that night... and the decision to buy it felt good... the actual eating of it was good... the taste the smell... all those triggers that we look for from food were there... and it was wonderful. Until after... After we ate and those gnawed on chicken bones were left sitting in that greasy cardboard and I looked at those empty containers I thought to myself, "What the hell was that about??" Really??

So what was it about? Obviously I need some positive emotional reinforcement from somewhere... and I was trying to get that positive feeling from a box full of deep fried chicken. Why would it be there?? Why do I think that eating is going to make me feel better? Usually I feel gross and disappointed after I eat it... but while I'm eating it, it's so good... So how do I stop this? What am I missing? 

Therapy?? Is that the answer? Or hypnosis? Maybe one of these options can flick the switch inside my head that makes me do things... Maybe... I dunno... 


It seems more and more that my blog has become a place for me to complain and bitch and put up excuses for not doing anything... Which sucks!


I'm even thinking about doing a fitness course or a nutrition course or something... I mean, surely learning about how the body works with these things I would learn what is good and bad for me... You know what I mean?? Well, it's an idea... what do you think??


Alright, well... I just wanted to talk about that stuff. I will be back soon with a proper update or something... please leave any suggestions you may have in the comments...?? 


Gazzy

Friday 12 March 2010

Power-Holiday Catch Up

Well my 5 day 'Power-Holiday' was wonderful but seemed to go so so fast... But let's get straight into the big daily catch up on food and activity...

Saturday (6th) - Day 1... well I spent the whole day watching Star Trek and doing housework.. I listened to some music & I read a bit... I basically was a lazy bastard all day long and it was wonderful... However, a day of watching Star Trek does not make for a fascinating blog entry... How many of you would be interested on my opinion of the use of the Borg in Star Trek Voyager? Probably not many of you... so we'll leave it alone. 


Sunday (7th) dad, grandma and I headed over to the Penguin Market. Nothing much changes there does it? But, again... it is nice to be out of the house, so we walked around the market for a while and then headed over to Ulverstone and had lunch at RA's. Was yummy... I maybe not have picked the healthiest item on the menu (Carnivore Pizza) but I did order the small size - and it was still a struggle to eat it... I spent the afternoon up at my folks place catching up with mum and my sister for a while... was a pretty good day...


Monday (8th)... We drove to Launceston in the morning and the rain was So So So Bad... We could barely see out of the windscreen. I'm thinking to myself the concert is going to washed out... we're going to be standing in the pouring rain for 6 hours and it's going to be horrible... We should turn around... this is gonna be bad!!! So, we got to Launceston and the time came to head out to Josef Chromy Winery and the rain stopped and the sky started clearing up! A miracle! By the time David Campbell came on stage around 4... the sun was out and it was HOT! Tom Jones hit the stage around 6 and sung for just over 2 hours and it was wonderful!! Sitting out in a winery in the sun, drinking wine, eating cheese and snacks and soaking up the wonderful sounds of Tom Freakin' Jones! Was such a marvellous fabulous day...


Tuesday (9th) was David's 26th Birthday! Happy Birthday!! We spent the day catching up with David's brother & his wife... and then David's mum took us out for a delicious meal at the Cock 'N Bull... a few glasses of scotch & a $80 win on the pokies later... we made it home... 


Wednesday (10th) we had to come home. But first we went out for breakfast at Cuccina (THE best place for breakfast!!)... with David's sister Meagan! (Hi Meagz!) Bit of gossip and some massive and awesome food later... we hit the shops! Did a little bit of shopping because, it's not like we're flowing with cash... but you know... And after another mid-afternoon coffee & gossip with David's folks it was back on the road again for home... Got home a little late and were naughty and got take away for dinner - but who really wants to cook after that kind of day?!?! So we watched a movie called 'Fanboys' and went to bed... 


Thursday (yesterday) was weigh in day - 145kg exactly... a 0.9kg loss from last week!!! Wowsers! With all the excess of the last few days I was kinda expecting a gain... but nope!! Must've been all that walking around and doing stuff! But then it was back to reality which means BACK TO WORK! Erk... My 6 hours shift seemed to go for 10 and it was bad... People are so arrogant and rude and so very stupid. Why can't people just be nice?? I mean, I know that automated machine is annoying... but, seriously... Is it MY fault it's there? Can I change it or remove it? Is it my fault it offered you the Commonwealth Bank when you asked for the Police Station?? No.. It's yours.. because you DON'T LISTEN to the instructions the machine gives you!!! If you use the machine properly it would probably fucking work!!! FUCK!!!


And today... well, after my very stressful six hours back at work I had another day off!! Lazy I know.. but, what can you do? So I watched a movie I've been meaning to watch for a while.. Milk. Anyone seen it? No, DO IT! It's a biographical movie about Harvey Milk and it is really really great! Harvey Milk was the first openly gay man to be elected into public office in the US. I had heard his name and knew he was an important gay politicial.. but his impact on society in the 70's was incredible. If you haven't seen it, watch it and let me know what you thought of it... if you have already seen it... what'd you think?? 


So I haven't done much today at all... I've done a little bit of housework and been inspired by that movie and not much else at all... 


I'm going to leave you tonight with a request... Please leave a comment and tell me what your favourite movies are and why and what feeling do they leave you with?? For example... I love the movie 'The Laramie Project'. It's a true story and the dialogue used in it are the actual words from people in the town of Laramie who are interviewed after a horrific event happens there. Knowing that the story and the words are real (even though it's actors speaking them) just gives me this sense of injustice and anger and sadness... There are other examples I could use I guess, but I would love to know what movies make you feel something lasting?? Or is it just me that takes movies so seriously?? :P 


Gazzy

Friday 5 March 2010

Weigh In Panic...

Day Late Weigh In... OMG... It's a bad result... worse than I thought, but given the horrible food and inactivity all week... I guess I shouldn't be so surprised... It is a wake up call to get back on the wagon though... so here's goes... truth time... 145.9!!!!! A 2.6 kg GAIN since LAST WEEK! OMG... That is a lot of weight to gain in a week... I'm very disappointed with myself... but it's done and I need to focus on getting things right from now on...

OK... well... Tonight is only a very quick update... I'm very excited I have a small break from work of 5 days... Going to Launceston for 3 days... which will just be lovely... But for now, David's waiting for me... and I better get off here... just wanted to update with the weigh in... Feel free to leave a comment about how terrible I am... I know, I know... it's BAD BAD BAD!


Gazzy

 

Thursday 4 March 2010

OMG! I Totally Forgot!!!

I Totally forgot that today was weigh in day... all my days are mixed up because I worked on the Tuesday which my day off every week... PLUS, I'm getting old and I forget things (well, you know...) So I'll do my weigh in tomorrow instead... oops! Sorry... my bad! So, let's get into the food report and stuff... but, don't hit me. I slept in this morning and totally skipped breakfast... but I had an early lunch break and I have my usual toasted sandwich with chicken, sun dried tomato, avocado and cheese on wholemeal bread... (known as the 'Toasted Garry' at Cafe Bliss) and an extra large latte as usual! And, work wasn't too bad today so I didn't go on a binge when I got home (phew!)... and we chucked some meat on the barbie tonight with some salad - yum yum!!

And that's the food report... Do you know what the biggest food challenge for me is? Night time snacking. After we have dinner... and everything is done for the day, we're sitting watching a movie or whatever and we snack... David opens some chocolate cos he's an addict and I'll usually eat something. I tried replacing the bad snacks with better snacks and that works fine... instead of eating a bowl of full-fat fully-delicious ice cream I've been having weight watchers ice cream sundae things... I've had different fruit salads, tinned and fresh fruit... I've been eating this low-carb, low-fat chocolate alternative stuff... which kinda just tastes like cheap chocolate with these fake nuts in it... Don't great... But when I run of these 'replacements' I can't resist the urge to just eat the normal snack junk... I can't help myself... For some reason I feel the NEED to eat at this time of the night... Even if I feel full as and stuffed from whatever we have for dinner - I just feel the absolute desperate need to munch and snack and chomp and consume... it's horrible. 

Now add this night cravings thing to the emotional eating I talked about last time plus this total inactive lifestyle I seem to have developed sometime in primary school... and I'm a case book example of what-not to do.... Not that this makes me feel depressed or bad, because this is how I've always lived... It's not like I used to run marathons or play sport and now I don't... I've never been any different... and I think that's why it's so hard for me to change... To become that person that is more active is to change everything... I don't know what I'm trying to say or if I'm explaining it at all... but hopefully you can understand what I mean... 

But anyways... Thank god it's Friday tomorrow... for some reason I feel fucked... I really need a break... Everything seems to be coming to a head lately... I've been stressed about work and money and just can't see a light at the end at the moment... but, I'm excited about having a few days off after tomorrow.... especially Monday! So Exciting!!
Alrighty Folks, I'll be back tomorrow with the weekly weigh in - Good or Bad!
Gazzy

Wednesday 3 March 2010

Emo Wednesday

 
I'm sure I've mentioned this before, but I'm an emotional eater. What I eat and how much I eat really depends on my mood, what kind of day I've had and what I'm doing just before or planning on doing after dinner. It seems that the customers at work get to me more and more every day... and in the last few weeks I've had more bad days than good... and it's effecting me more than I realised until today...

Today was just one of those day where the stupidity, arrogance and abuse from the customers really got to me and made me more and more frustrated every hour of my shift. So after 8 hours of crap I finally got home and had a bit of a binge on chocolate - didn't go too crazy, but just not a good indication of why I eat. And as if that wasn't enough... when it came time for dinner... well, the call of McDonald's was just too great... which was definitely counted as a Way Too Big of a binge... for the first time ever I counted the calories of my meal (after the fact!) and in one sitting of McDonald's food I consumed approx. 1922 calories!! Almost 2000 calories in one fucking go! What the fuck is that about?!?! 

I think it's pretty obvious that I need to figure out a way to stop myself from eating for emotional reasons... it's something I was aware of before but didn't think that much of it... But I have to admit that this is an issue for me and needs to be fixed, but I have no idea how to combat this. I'm assuming the best way to address this would be to find something that is emotionally rewarding to me that can replace the need to eat crappy food. Maybe I should use the boxing bag and punch out my frustration... walk away that kinda depressed low-feeling... Surely something that is a positive action towards my health would be a mood enhancer right?? 

Well, that's my Emo Wednesday confession... If anyone reading has any advice, I'm totally open.. and thanks to those that leave comments... I appreciate you taking the time to respond to my posts... 
Gazzy

Tuesday 2 March 2010

Just Another Day....

Good Evening

Well it was a pretty uneventful work day today... my back has been playing up for about a week. It's been coming and going for a year or so and I've been to the doc a couple of times - and they basically just say 'Get Over It'... so I guess I just have to live with it. I know if I lost some weight it would help with my back pain - not to mention a lot of other health related issues I guess. It's just so hard to stay motivated.

The good thing about even starting the blog is that I got rid of a couple of bad habits right from the start... I try never to skip meals and I don't drink soft drink at all (except occasionally mixed with scotch - but that is rare!) So, despite my weight not falling off me lately like when I started the blog, it also hasn't ballooned up to some crazy weight or even back up to where I started at 151.3.... so it's not all bad!


So today I was at work and my back was killing me... and I just couldn't get the pain to go away - took the pain killers, tried to stretch my back (without looking like too much of a dickhead) and I just couldn't sit there, I had to go home... so as bad as it is... I had to leave work on my lunch break, which sucks... When I got home I went for a little walk to loosen my back up and moved around to try to help.. so it's feeling a bit better now... Don't know if it's the moving and walking or all those pain killers - but, either way...

 








Let's get to business... this morning I had Nutri-Grain for breakfast again, 2-min noodles for lunch today and for dinner (please don't hit me!) Garlic Chicken with chips - I know, I know... And I'm not going to start trying to justify myself or give excuses... i had chips - deal with it. 


So, I've been saying how I want to get back on track and get this weight-loss thing cracking again like when I first started... and I tell you, every night when I go to bed I tell myself to get up earlier and go for a walk... and when that doesn't happen I tell myself to go for a walk after work - just do it... and when that doesn't happen and I'm snuggled up on the couch watching a movie with David, I tell myself tomorrow will be a different day and I go to bed telling myself to get up earlier and go for a walk... and the cycle is repeated... So, what's different? What in my mind has changed from June when I was walking and eating right and did the Leven Canyon walk that almost killed me... and started a running program and kept at it and really trying... What's different? 


Usually I try to answer those types of questions, but I just don't know what's different. I don't know why I'm procrastinating about all this... I don't understand myself... Is that bad?? I don't know... I don't know how to change my ways... Perhaps just forcing myself to do something every day will form a new habit... I don't know... Suggestions? Ideas??


Speaking of Suggestions... Does anyone have an ideas for the blog itself? I'm very open to any suggestions or ideas on regular articles/topics or feedback at all... so please, leave a comment... 


Any I might leave it there for tonight, because My Kitchen Rules is on and I keep getting distracted - love that show... really must have a dinner party because I have plenty of serving ware and rarely get to use it... Any volunteers to be guinea pigs to my cooking skills?? Thought not... 


Good Night All... 
Gazzy

Monday 1 March 2010

Monday Soap Box

Holy Crap... it's March!! Is it just me or does 2010 seem to be flying??

Let's get down to business... the Food Report! Saturday - was a work day for me, Nutri-Grain for breakfast, no lunch and pizza for dinner... bad bad, i know.. but I'm being honest, so deal with it! Yesterday was a day off & I went over the Ulverstone Festival in the Park for the day. Was nice to be out of the house and not at work! I skipped breakfast, but of all the unhealthy and deep fried choices at a festival like that, I had a venison souvlaki for lunch... it was mostly lettuce with a little bit of venison but was good all the same. Then last night we went to my folks for dinner because my grandma is over from Victoria for a 6 week visit... so we had a little birthday gathering for her last night... lasagna and salad and a bit of birthday cake for dessert - I'm a sucker for a sponge! And, so that brings us to today... Nutri-Grain for breakfast, coffee before work, left over pizza (only 3 slices) for lunch and Dave's Noodles for dinner tonight. NOT BEING DIRTY... It's a legitimate stir-fry noodle take away place, not a reference to David's... well, you know... Oh! Was I the only one that went there??? SORRY!!!
So, that's that... there you go... Not great, but you know... 


Now for some bitching, as usual... 

So, this is gonna sound petty or stupid, but it bugs me. Sometimes at work people say 'thank you and god bless'. I find this incredibly rude. It's mostly old people and I know they're just trying to be nice and whatever, but it's rude. They don't know what religion I am or if I follow a religion at all... if I was a satanist, would they like me to end a call with "May Satan follow your children through life" or even Mohammad bless or whatever religious reference I like?? I mean, this very simple gesture of politeness just seems very rude to me. It's just rude to assume anything about me.... 
One time I had a guy call up, probably in his 30's I reckon and he asked for Scissor Sisters in Queensland (i think) it was a hairdresser. It did come up straight away so I tried to make small talk and said to him "that's a band isn't it?" He said, "Yeah, a faggot band." So I learnt to keep my mouth shut and just get on with it... 
The only thing I assume about people is that they're slightly intelligent... but usually I'm proved wrong! 
OK... I'm done... that was my bitch! The end!


So, what else has been doin? Well, not much at all really... We're only 8 months away from Halloween... and I think it's going to be big this year... I think I mentioned we're having a Carnival this year... We've been researching what we want to have and the best and cheapest way to make things. I think it's going to be a lot of fun this year... 



Does anyone know what's happening with this internet filter?? Or this internet ombudsman?? I saw on Sunrise all this stuff about people leaving offensive comments and stuff on certain Facebook pages about that girl that was murdered and that people were demanding an ombudsman to monitor and control what content people are leaving.... 


OK... I understand that the people leaving these messages are the lowest form of scum. It is horrible to think that people would do this... but they do it. People are like this... and I think it's the responsibility of the people that host these websites, pages, forums or whatever it is, to monitor their sites and delete this they think are inappropriate. Do we really need a government authority to dictate what we can and can not do online? If you're offended by something or are disturbed by something you find online... close it, don't look at it... whatever... block it from your personal computer... Are we really to the point that we want a government to filter the whole countries access to information?? China has a internet filter, but they're communist... I thought the whole idea of Freedom was exactly that... Freedom to view/read/learn whatever we want... 


I'm off the Soap Box now... I'm sorry... 

Alright... That's me for today... I'll be back tomorrow night! Have a wonderful Monday night! xoxo

Gazzy

Friday 26 February 2010

The Big Return... well, the return anyways

I'm Back!!

I'm so so sorry everyone. I know I've been away and back and away and back and I've been a bit all over the show with the blog for the last few months, but I really want to get back into the swing of things and that's what I'm planning on doing! I've developed a sort-of structure for blog posts, so I'm hoping that will help keep me focused on the blog and my personal goals.

I've been 'off-line' for around 3 weeks now... we've been struggling a bit financially and internet access wasn't a priority compared to some other expenses. But I'm back now and this blog isn't about money, it's about me... and what better topic!!

Three Week Absence means 3 un-reported weigh in days have passed... so, here we go...
11/02 - 143.3     a 0.1 gain
18/02 - 143.8     a 0.5 gain
25/02 - 143.3     a 0.5 loss... which gives me a February Result of +0.9kgs. Well, that's about 3.9kilos away from the goal of a 3 kilo loss... OOOPS!

I just wanna say... that work has given me a new outlook on Australia's education system. I appreciate good spelling and conversations with educated people - at least people that know what they're talking about - those conversations you have with those people that are making shit up as you go along really pisses me off. But it's those 'customers' that abuse me and act so superior when they absolutely know nothing! It would be fine if they said, "I'm looking for this, but I have no idea..." But the other day I had a really, really 'uneducated' (PC) person.She was on a mobile and it was very hard to hear and this is how it went:
Me "What name please?"
"Ausfarm"
"Did you say Ausfarm?"
"Yes" (frustrated)
"Is that O-Z or A-U-S?"
"For Fucks Sake... it's Ausfarm"
"OK. Is it spelt O-Z or A-U-S?"
"Don't you know how to fucking spell?"
"Yes, but there are different -"
"Fucks Sake! It's OZ, as in O-Z and then Farm. You know what a farm is? Where fucking sheep live?"
"OK"
"For Fucks Sake. Farm! P-H-A-R-M!


PHARM... Where sheep live!!! What the fuck is that about?? Unbelievable. And the thing that made it worse was her attitude. Totally oblivious to her own stupidity!! I know even if she ever finds my blog, I'm safe... I doubt she'd be able to read it!!

Also at work the other day was a call for Catholic Church Insurance. Now, I know the church is a business and even better for them, they're tax exempt because they're a faith organisation... but this really made me laugh. I mean, isn't their whole message that god protects and provides for all of his followers? And what? Just in case god fails you and you're house is flooded and you loose everything... you've got the Jesus approved insurance policy? New for Old Replacement on All Your Bibles!!! I would love to see some of those TV commercials!! Can you imagine the old door-to-door insurance salesman with the preacher mixed in.  Have you accepted Jesus as your personal savior? No. Do you have full comprehensive? I mean really....

And doesn't that piss you off? The fact religion gets tax exemption. I think that would be ok if the church stuck to the church, but Sanitarium (owners of Weet-Bix) is owned by a church (I forgot which) so are exempt from paying tax on all the profit they make from selling those popular wheat bricks! Maybe Mr. L Ron Hubbard had it right... create a religion if you really make some money....

So, what have I been doing for 3 weeks I hear you ask... Well, what haven't I been doing... Everything. I have done shit all for the last 3 weeks. I've been working and being a house bitch. Since the last entry, I've gone to Bingo which was fun! It was a very uneventful Valentine's Day, I've had coffee chatty catch ups with most of the girls at some point... and yeah... not much else. Been pretty low intensity lately... but there is some more excitement in the coming weeks... Yay Yay Yay... I'll keep you posted... 

Well... I think I should wrap it up there for tonight... But I will be back.. and not in 3 weeks time!

Good Evening You'All... and please, comments if you enjoy or have any suggestions for the blog, for weight loss or even just words of encouragement or ANYTHING you want to say... All opinions and comments are welcome.... See ya soon! 
Gazzy

Saturday 13 February 2010

please hold. Your readership is very important to us.

hello everyone. As you may have noticed i haven't posted anything for a while. I'm experiencing some technical difficulties.... However i will return as soon as i can!

Saturday 6 February 2010

I Know... I'm Sorry... But I'm Back!

Hello all.... I'm sorry... I know it's been over a week since my last post. I don't even have a good excuse really... does laziness count? The last time I wrote it was the January weigh in result and I must say that I haven't been feeling the motivation since then. Not that I was upset, disappointed or surprised by that result... just feeling the struggle.

So, highlights of the week... let's see. There was work and some work... fun huh? Not really... what else? Well... Monday I went to see the 3D re-release of Toy Story 1 & 2 with Bianka and Joy. Was good... I'm kinda loving this 3D movie revolution we're seeing... and we went out for lunch after. Now, we all had the same thing and it was naughty... but I don't go out for lunch very often, so gimme a break! Right! I know I could've made a better choice... not like they only served one item, but... WHATEVER! As you can see... it was delicious! 

What else? Ummm... there was some more work... and still planning the Halloween stuff. Trying to figure out how to make things now... Got a few ideas, but actually making those ideas is tricky, so trying to brain storm.  Thursday we had dinner at my folks... Roast Beef with vegies - there you go, Vegies! See... health health health sweetie! Ahhh... oh! David finally got his license back. So, of course he was all excited and happy so we spent most of yesterday driving around. Again... bad choice of lunch while on the road.. Peer Pressure - that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it!  So that was good actually... lots of chatting, stopped at a few shops to browse, stopped at my folks for a coffee... Good day...

And today... not much at all. Been editing video again today. My mum, brother and sister dropped around for coffee and cake. Stayed for a chat. And not much else happened. Only had a tub of yogurt for lunch and David is cooked Honey Mustard Chicken as I type. Yum Yum. 

If you've been reading the blog the last couple of weeks, you'll know I had a tooth pulled over 3 weeks ago and I've been having trouble with it healing.... even went back to a hot dentist to get the empty socket checked out to no result. Well.. 2 days ago I could feel something in the hole and grabbed some tweezers. There was a huge (huge for a whole in your gum) piece of tooth inside... So, obviously I removed it and it immediately felt better and has been healing very very nicely the last two days!! OMG... So glad! That might've been too much information - but you'll get over it!


OK... So I know I've been slack with writing as well as the actual eating and exercise, but like I've said before it's a lifestyle change. I'm not breaking any rules by not walking and eating crap... I'm just not making good choices. And I know this. I am aware that how I've been treating my body is unhealthy and will lead to some bad consequences eventually. But a big change like this is a slow process... and I will get there... And as always, any suggestions or idea are very welcome and I appreciate hearing your thoughts... good and bad... so, please... Comment Below!

Well, I'm gonna leave it there tonight. I'm going to try try try to write here more often. It was every day and I will try to get back to those daily updates... Maybe some more structure is needed... 

Oh, I forgot... it was weigh in day on Thursday... I didn't post but I did weigh in... It was a 0.8kg gain. Not huge, but that is 2 small gains over the last 2 weeks, so obviously I need to get back on track. Especially if I want to achieve the 3kg goal for February! I can only try! 


Peace Out Homies!
Gazzy

Thursday 28 January 2010

It's the January Result Weigh In!!

Hey guys... I know I've been absent for a couple of days, I'm sorry... So here's what's been happening...



Monday... David and I both had the day off and we had a bit of petrol in the tank and we spontaneously decided to go for a trip up to George Town to visit David's brother. They moved there a while ago and we haven't had the chance to get up there. So off we went for a drive and hung out there for a while, catching up and whatnot for a couple of hours and then we drove down to Launceston to visit David's mum (Hi Kerry!)... more chatting and coffee for a couple of hours and they convinced us to stay the night and took us out for a wonderful meal at the Cock and Bull. Was a wonderful day... great to catch up with everyone and have a drink and gossip. Was a good day and great night...

And the Monday Food Report: Nutri-Grain for Breakfast, no Lunch (naughty I know) and a Chicken Wellington at the pub (chicken, mushroom, puff pastry with creamy mustard sauce) with chips and salad - not the healthiest, but so totally worth it... was so so good!



So, Tuesday... we hung around in Launceston for a while longer... and headed home around lunch time... When we got home... I was a bit tired... I ended up falling asleep on the couch for a couple of hours. Ooops. Nana-Nap... Nice!!!! So, Food Report: Well, I was bad... didn't have breakfast or lunch (really)... had 2 minute noodles when we finally got home and then we had some chicken nuggety things we had in the freezer for dinner. Bad, Bad, Bad... I know. 



Yesterday I was back at work... Slept in a little bit and I skipped breakfast... I know that is bad, but I did... I did have a coffee before work... and then at lunch I had another coffee and a savoury muffin from Cafe Bliss. Was Yum. For dinner tonight, pasta bake... very yummy...  And a weigh watchers dessert thing... nice nice



And that brings us to today... Weigh In Day and the last Weigh In for January.... and the result?
142.4... which is a 0.1kg gain. Not so bad for the week... and that makes the total loss for January... exactly 2kgs! Not too shabby... not great, but let's face it... I haven't been Mr. Motivation this month... 


So, January = 2kgs down and the official starting weight for February is set... I really wanna work to get to my target of 3kg down a month... And February is the month to do it. February is a pretty quiet month for me... We've got Valentine's Day on the 14th... but we haven't done anything for Valentine's Day since our first one together... So, I should be able to focus on my goals this month and hopefully get a good result....


My tooth is feeling a better. No pain really... except still when drinking from my pop-top bottle and smoking etc etc... And even that is not really pain, just sort of sensitive. So that's good, although there's still a big gaping hole where a tooth used to be... hope it heals over soon... bugs me! That other tooth that was playing up has not bothered me since that day... Still don't think it will survive until my scheduled dentist appointment in April... but you never know...

And that's about it for tonight folks.... Catch ya soon! 
Gazzy

Sunday 24 January 2010

The Sunday Blog


As I mentioned yesterday we went to the movies to see Avatar in 3D last night. And I have to say it was fantastic. If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it... I was worried that the 3D would be a bit gimmicky (as it was in Final Destination 4) but it wasn't at all. After 20 minutes or so you're too involved in the story and the amazing life-like look of the film to pay that much attention to the 3D... However the use of 3D technology in this particular movie, added a layer of depth and reality to an alien world. 
If you're not familiar with the story; it follows Jake Sully who is a wheelchair bound ex-marine who has been sent to the planet Pandora to be part of the Avatar program. Basically they clone an alien with some human DNA of Jake who's mind is then transferred to the avatar's body. He's been sent there to become part of the native society so that he can find a peaceful way to get the natives to leave their home so the human corporation can destroy and mine their homeland.
That is a very basic outline because the actual film gives you so much more... the natives are very spiritual, everything connected to each other, the forest and mountains and everything else is all so beautifully created you truly believe what you are watching. Despite the fact the aliens are very tall and very blue, after getting to know them as Jake does, you almost believe they are real. 
David complained about the length of the film because it does go for almost 3 hours. But I thought it was perfect. I can't think of any part of it that you could cut out of it. It was great!


OK... enough about Avatar. Moving on...


So, I'm thinking this health check-up/overhaul thing is a good idea... and with some encouraging words from Kerry (see previous entry comments) it's my plan. Now we all know doctors and dentists and the like are kinda expensive... so my plan is to have everything checked-up by the end of February. That way I can spread the costs of stuff over a few weeks... if only I bothered to get health insurance all those years ago when I didn't need it! Health insurance is something I've been thinking about because of the costs involved with the dentist. With just two appointments in two weeks I've amassed $230 worth of dentist debt. Wowsers! So, check-up and insurance. Now, that February date is just what I'm aiming for. For instance, when I was at the dentist last week I made a follow-up appointment to get checked out and fixed... and the soonest they could get me in was April 20th... so hopefully my teeth will survive till then... I'm seriously worried about them all now, I desperately want a check-up. But, can only do what I can do... I'm pretty certain the one that was playing up yesterday (and still doesn't feel right) will not last till April, but I'm not in pain so they wont give me an emergency appointment. 


Anyways, I also know a wonderful woman, Joy Dunne, who is a hypno-therapist and counsellor. I'm thinking if I'm getting a body check-up it might be a good plan to get a mental check-up as well. Maybe a bit of hypno-therapy to help with motivation and confidence and whatever else might need tweeking...


Australia Day is fast approaching... And I don't have plans... is that bad? Am I un-Australian if I don't have plans on Australia Day? Well, whatever.... It's a Tuesday this year, right? Please tell me it's Tuesday... otherwise I'm the most un-Australian person ever! Well... maybe we'll all go on a BBQ picnic walk thing... That's Aussie enough right??


Well, tomorrow is also the start of a new week... and I'm gonna try to get back to the original idea of this blog... food & exercise reporting and photos and all that stuff... It's time I learn to focus of these things and stop procrastinating about doing something. The time for talk has past and it's time to DO... Who's with me?!?!


Yeah, that inspirational sentence wore me out... might need a couple of days to recover... 
Gazzy