Happy Anniversary!

Today is our 4 year anniversary. Hence the included photos of David and me!

But, this blog is about food and lifestyle and ME! So, let's keep the focus on that!

Special K for brekkie, Toasted Grain Bread Sandwich for lunch... and I prepared a lovely dinner for our anniversary. It's a bit naughty, but it's a special occasion. It's a creamy chicken fettuccine with garlic bread (a little bit) and some champagne. It was delicious. Yum Yum. Except I think I drank more than half the bottle and am feeling just a little light headed while I write this. Please forgive any spelling mistokes! hehehe - that's funny cos it was on purpose!

Damian and I met for what is supposed to be a C25K day.. but scheduling conflicts made it a "casual stroll". Which was fine. Any movement is good movement! Plus my knee is still feeling off. Maybe I've done some damage - or maybe I'm just a sooky little bitch and need to Harden the Fuck Up! We'll see what happens when I go to do a run on Thursday! I'll keep you posted (and take photos) if my leg falls off!

Didn't even try to give up smoking today... lol... I'm so determined.

I tried to start a religious debate last night. It would seem more people have opinions about people on the dole! Funny about that, huh?
Which led me speculate... how important is religion in society today? I mean, the church used to be a very powerful organisation and influence over the world. They were the law makers... what do they do now? Where do they fit into a world that seems so selfish and tech-savvy?

Anyway, it's my anniversary.. and I'm on the computer writing a blog... so, I'm going now..

Comments welcome and encouraged. I'll write again tomorrow!
Good Night Everyone!

Gazzy

Which Part of Telstra?

Happy Monday Everyone!!!

Sorry... Monday's suck, don't they? Most the time. I had yesterday off and I have tomorrow off.. but Monday still sucks. lol... I think it's a mental thing.. it's just a horrible day, really.

Anyways, I didn't have a horrible day. Special K for breakfast, Chicken & Salad on Grain with coffee from Cafe Bliss for lunch.. and dinner was sausages and veges. Very nice. Yum Yum.

Today was a bit of a shitty day. Had a lot of ignorant or just plain dumb people calling in today.
How hard is it to pay attention to the person YOU called? How hard is it to actually know what you're looking for before calling for help? How hard is it to be polite & friendly? How hard is it to accept that some 'phone numbers' (just phone numbers, not something Massively Important) may not be listed? How hard is it to understand these sentences:

They don't have an office number listed, they have a customer service line?
Which part of Telstra are you after? Home phones, Business, Mobiles?
There is no listing for that particular coffee shop.

I mean... from what I can tell, people just don't understand simple English or just don't give a shit at all. When they are assholes, what I want to say is, "Sorry? Did you say you called for the number of someone who cares?"

Anyway. Moving On.

I still haven't tried to quit smoking... But, I guess I will... eventually. But, as some of you have said in your comments, it's not my first priority. My weight and fitness level is what is important at this point. And, that's true.. and I totally know that... so it's all good... we shall see.

As for the C25K program... I've been putting together a music track so that I can do my 4 week warm up to C25K. I really think this will be heaps better for me, because I will actually be able to achieve these results because they're not so intense from the start. So, I'll be starting this in a couple of days... The plan was to start it tomorrow, but scheduling conflicts have come up and I will just be walking tomorrow instead... but any movement is good movement, so it's all good!

Alrighty then... that's about it for tonight. I'm tempted to start that religious debate I spoke about a week or so ago.. but, I might leave that decision up to you guys. Are any of you guys kinda religious at all? Does anyone actually want to have a discussion on this topic, because I would love to... maybe I should put this in the forum.

Speaking of the forum (link to the right there...) I was hoping some of you would like to share some stories and we can have some good discussions or debates or just jokes or something..

Okay.. So I'm heading off now. I'll update again tomorrow!

Good Night,

Gazzy

Sunday

So, another day off. Breakfast was Special K.. my brother came around for a visit and bought Subway for lunch - Sweet Onion Chicken Teriyaki which is one of the low-fat ones. Dinner is gonna be late.. David's cooking now, hence no photo. Beef Strog - yum yum.

I was thinking about this C25K thing. Because it is so hard for me to do.. I created my own 4 week program to do before I commence the actual program. It's the same principal, just a bit lighter.. building up to be able to do the Week One they have scheduled. I figure this way, I will still be building towards the final goal and I still have that sense of accomplishment when I can do the weeks that I've planned.

Smoking.. I need to give it up. I'm basically paying to get sick. And, I can't afford to keep smoking. We always seem to be broke, yet we always have cigarettes. If we had nothing to eat for a day and no smokes and only $15 we would probably buy smokes and eat something really crappy instead. It's dumb. I'm dumb. It doesn't make sense at all. And yet...

I don't have much else to report on tonight. It was a pretty slow day off. Did some housework, watched some Star Trek, did some internet surfing. I was going to head out for a walk along the beach (before the weather turned so shitty), but my brother came over and we got distracted by Voyager episodes. We're both geeks!

I might leave it there for tonight. I hope you have all had a great weekend... See you tomorrow.

Gazzy

Oh No He Didn't!

Oh I'm afraid he did. He broke. Even though I had a good day, C25K day 3 this morning... I didn't finish work till 8 o'clock tonight... and I was hungry. There was no way I wanted to go home and cook dinner. So... Don't read this, please... I had KFC. Now, before you all give up on me and say, "Well, he's fucked it up now, might as well find a different blog!", I tried to still make a decent decision about the whole fiasco. I was gonna have a Twister, cos they appear healthier, until I was told that the twisters actually have more fat in them than a burger. So I had a regular Zinger meal - No Pepsi - gave that to David. So I was naughty. Chicken burger and chips, but still no soft drink and no sugary sweet and delicious things!

And I feel guilty about it... and I feel a little gross...

So, Anyways, moving on from that.

Damian and I had our c25k Day 3 today. Now, Day 3 is supposed to be the last day of the first week of the program. Well I can tell you now, that's not gonna happen...
Our first "60 second" jog was great - I made it 55 seconds (which is my best so far), but after that I was terrible. My left knee almost felt like it wanted to pop out or fall off or something... and my legs and feet were aching and painful... But I kept trying... so, a while. I didn't finish today program. Out of the 25mins that it was supposed to be, I think I did a total of 15 or 20 minutes.
On paper, week one looks piss easy... In reality, I think it was never designed for someone who is as heavy or me or as out of shape. It's really really hard going. But, that doesn't mean I stopping. I will continue to try and try and try... 'Cause what else can I do?
I'm not giving up on this. I'm not happy or healthy the way I am now. I want to be healthier... I want to be a happier person and my weight stops me from doing things. Not just physical things either. I feel very self-conscious. I don't really like people I don't know seeing me!

How silly is that?

Yeah, it's pretty stupid. But, the majority of negativity that I've ever received about my weight has been from people I don't know OR people I don't know very well.

When I was in Grade 7 (the fat kid) I was walking home from the bus stop and this woman stopped me. This woman was tall and wide, she had a walker frame thing she was leaning on and she seemed to be wearing a lot of clothes and big sunglasses. She kinda looked like a man. Anyway, she stopped me in the street and started telling me that I was too young to be that fat. She said that I will get sick. I will get diabetes and I will die. Of course, I ran home very upset and it upset me for a long long time. Obviously, because I still remember it clearly. So, I ran home upset and ate and ate and ate for comfort... In reality, her trying to help made a bad situation worse. Apparently she's still around in Ulverstone and if I ever see her, I think I will stop her and remind her of what she said to me and what happened after....

And, that wasn't the only time a stranger warned me about unhealthy I was... There was a woman in the band that David and his parents are members of, she decided she should warn me of the dangers of drinking alcohol when you're overweight. She started talking about diabetes and shit too.

Do skinny people think that fat people have never heard of diabetes? Why do they all have to remind me that being overweight and shit is unhealthy? You think I don't know that?

Look, being fat isn't really a choice. But It Is. I chose to eat all those hamburgers and all that chocolate and guzzle down all that soft drink and crap. I chose to do those harmful things to my body.. but, I honestly didn't know how to stop myself. And no one else around me was going to tell me to stop and help me. No one helped me... and I had to wait till I got this big and woke up to myself... And, now I don't have a choice about what I need to do. I need to get rid of all this. I need to do it. I just wish I had discovered this revelation 3 or 4 years ago, when it wouldn't be so hard...

Anyways.. I should go.

Good Night All. Hope everyone is enjoying their Weekend!

Gazzy

Good Night, Charlie

I didn't take any photos of what I ate today.. I thought I would put up some pics of a couple of famous people the world lost today.

Poor Farrah, she was a beautiful woman (if you like that kinda thing!) and she had suffered for long enough. She had a great spirit and I think in her final years she exposed a very raw, emotional side to herself, her fighting spirit. She gave some 'publicity' and exposure to cancer as well and educated people to right up to the end. She was a brave, beautiful woman and she will be missed by many, I am sure... Good Night, Charlie.

Now, as for Michael Jackson... Of course, the news of his death overshadowed that of Farrah. It's an odd sensation. I've always been a fan of Michael's music... and I'm even a fan of that Wizard of Oz remake "The Wiz" in which he played the Scarecrow. But, on a personal level - his personal life... well... his kids might get a decent upbringing Now. I just don't really know what to say, because I enjoy his music and videos and stuff.. but it's not like he's done much for me lately. Yeah, well.. I'm not too stressed - he was a bit too weird.. He may have made some great music, but, yeah... I might leave it at that...

I will say, I got a lot of SMS today with MJ jokes. Didn't take long either....

Anyways, moving onto what this blog was created for...

For breakfast I had some Just Right, lunch was a coffee and Chicken and Salad on grain from Cafe Bliss - again!! As for dinner, well... I finished work at 7pm and then we had to go over to Ulverstone to see my parents for a bit.. so by the time we got back in town and ready for din dins.. it was just after 9 o'clock. We went to McDonalds.

Now, Don't Freak Out!!! I had a Sweet Chilli Chicken Wrap - and nothing else. The wrap was on the Healthy Choices menu and I managed to control myself and not order fries or a cheeseburger or even a coke. Mind you, I did steal a couple of David's chicken nuggets, shhhh! Don't tell anyone... it was only 2. Shhh!

So, I'm not too stressed about all that anyway.

C25K Day 3 tomorrow. I hope to be able to do at least the first 60second jog. I will push myself to do the first 60seconds... if I can.. I will keep you posted..

Tonight's blog was late.. so, I'm gonna leave it there... I was at work all day - split shift - so I was actually there for over 10hours, so I don't have much else to report, unless you wanna hear about some shitty customers - and who wants to listen (read) that crap?!?

If you would like to comment on Farrah or Michael, please do. Any comments on anything else are encouraged also. Lovin' the feedback... It's great to know people are reading and enjoying.. keep it coming!

Signing Off.

Gazzy

Results

Another successful weigh in day! Yay...

I seriously cannot believe 5.4kg in 3 weeks mostly from diet change. I mean, I've done a bit more exercise than normal as well... but I'm not in the gym every day or anything major... having said that, the walk/jog c25k thing feels kinda intense, but more on that in a minute..

Breakfast was a bowl of Nutri-Grain. Then the run with Damian. Lunch was some instant pasta stuff...which, I know isn't that good for you, but it's better than a Big Mac and I didn't have much food in the house... Tonight is traditionally take away night. But, instead we had Chicken Burritos which I love! As you can see in the picture, I have a love affair with Sour Cream (Light, of course). So, not too bad.

So, Damian & I met up for Day Two of our C25K program. I was determined to push myself further than last time, but it was a struggle again. My first jog (supposed to last 60seconds) was alright. Managed to keep going for about 45 seconds... but each jogging interval got worse and worse from there. I did really try. I am not going to give up on this, but having it set to week-to-week goals may be a little crap. Will I feel like I'm failing if I have to repeat? Possibly. Maybe I should make it a 9 month program instead of 9 weeks. Ok.. 9 months is a shit long time, but I'm not in a rush am I? (Damian may not want to run with me 3 times a week for 9 months though?!?)

NO! I want to do the 5km Santa Dash in Ulverstone at the end of the year. I have 5 1/2 months to get to the end of the program. I can do that! The more I practice the better I will get. The more weight I loose, the less I have to carry with me on that jog! I can do it in 5 months. I am determined.

So, 5.4kgs down... I was going to start collecting something for every 5kgs I lose. Well, I've reached my first target and I have no idea what I want to collect? Something that can represent what I'm doing... Something that I can put on my mantlepiece or on display with pride and know that they are there to show me and remind me of how bad I had gotten and how much better I will be feeling... But, I have no Friggin idea and it's pissing me off! Anyone thought of anything? Seriously, all suggestions are more than welcome...

Now, the smoking issue... Well, today I tried to smoke less than normal... trying to cut back a little. Between getting out of bed and about midday I had had a total of 2 cigarettes. Usually I have 2 with my morning coffe as soon as I wake up - and would normally have probably had about7 or 8 in the same time. After that, I went back to normal. In fact, I may have compensated for the ones I missed this morning, by smoking more this afternoon and this evening! Now, I think the reason for that was... I kept myself busy this morning and I didn't do much this afternoon. I think I was smoking because I was bored. But now that I know that, what? I can't find something to do every minute of every day. I enjoy being bored - not being bored - but, you know, doing nothing.... So, we'll see. I might try out a couple of different cutting back techniques and see what happens. I don't want to go cold turkey on a work day, because I know how shit I will feel.. I will have a headache and probably the shakes and I will feel like crap, so I'm not going to just not have any when I'm off to work... Not a good idea!

Anyways, that's enough about that. I experienced some LA traffic this evening. I went to pick David up from work (Yes, we live close to his work, but it was raining!) and there was a mass line up of cars. I was seriously waiting for about 15 or 20 minutes, to get around the block (basically).
There must have been an accident. Hope everyone's alright...

That's about everything for tonight. Please, leave a comment on a reward if you can think of anything.. leave a comment anyway cos I like knowing people are reading!!

5.4kgs down... at least 45kgs left to go... daunting isn't it?!

Gazzy

The Weekly Weigh-In...

Just a quick update for the weigh-in...

Unbelievable!

I had to weigh myself 3 times to believe it...

145.9kg

That's a 2.1kg loss this week... bringing the total of loss to...

5.4 kg Gone!!!

Unreal!!!

Very Happy with that result... now I'm going to get ready for my walk/jog!!

Just Another Day at Work...

Today was just another work day. Full day at work... So, Just Right for breakfast.. Chicken & Salad on Grain for lunch and a bit of an indulgence for dinner... Honey Mustard Chicken! I LOVE Honey Mustard Chicken... could almost eat it every day..... But, no!

So, yeah... Not much to report on tonight.

And, No, I didn't walk to work this morning - But we all knew that would happen, right?

My legs are a bit stiff again today... my chest and right shoulder aren't feeling that great either. But, No Pain - No Gain (or loss... not trying to gain!)

But.. to hell with pain. C25K Day 2 is tomorrow!! If you've been reading the comments people leave on here, you know there was a "pants" issue on Day 1. So, I'll be off to Target at 9am to purchase so appropriate "pant" wear.

So, yeah. I'm actually feeling pretty good lately. I feel a bit different, physically. Now, I'm not expecting anyone else to notice any changes, it's only been a couple of weeks and it's only a very small percentage of weight that's been evaporated... But, I feel a little better. I'm sure by the time I start trying to jog tomorrow, I won't feel as good..

Thank god you're here is about to start, so I'm gonna piss off...

I'm still trying to think of something I can collect for every 5 or 10kgs I lose... So, if anyone can think of Anything... all suggestions are welcome...

Weigh-In Day tomorrow.. so, look out!

Adios!

Gazzy

CS5K Begins...

Let's talk about food... Nutri-Grain for breakfast.. That's a tomato and cheese toasted sandwich for lunch.. Now, dinner was a budget option... It's some leftover pasta sauce from the other night on top of a hot potato with broc and beans...

Last night's post led to some wonderful comments, both agreeing and disagreeing with me. Which is great! I love a good debate.. I love to hear everyone's opinion on any issue really...
I guess I should step in up a notch and start a debate on Religion tonight...

Let's not. I might leave that for another time... Let's not start another religious war online... lol.

So, we'll talk about me instead - another great topic - lol.

This morning I got dressed up (as you can see in the pics above - Special Thanks to Jaci!!!) for my first C25K session. The first week on the program is 3 sessions of 25 mins. 5 minute walk to warm up... then 60 seconds of jogging, 90 seconds of walking repeated for a total of 20minutes.
So, I met Damian at Romaine Reserve this morning... and.. OH.. MY.. GOD.
When you read 60 seconds of jogging, you think "yeah. sure. no freakin problem!"

It WAS a problem... The first jog started I think I made it for about 20, 25 seconds... and each jog after that was shorter. I was totally out of breath... it was bad. But everytime I was supposed to jog, I tried.. I at least did something.. and that's the main thing right, trying...?

Just so you know, Damian did a lot better, jogging for the total 60 seconds each time! Well done D-Man!

But, just because it was hard doesn't mean I'm giving up! The plan is 3 sessions a week, so that's what I'll do. I may have to do the first week for 2 or 3 weeks, but who gives a shit about that?!

The plan is to be fit and able to jog for 5km by the end of the year. Which gives me 6months to do a 9week program... lol... As a test/accomplishment for myself, I plan to enter the Christmas Santa Dash thing they had in Ulverstone last year (if they do it again this year) which is for charity... I'm not gonna give up just because it's a little hard!

Now, smoking issues. I think smoking is affecting my ability to do the jogging. I start wheezing and I'm out of breath way to early.. sounds terrible, so I think I will try to give up. Stopping smoking isn't my main priority at the moment, so I will do my best - we'll see. I'll keep you posted!

I may or may not walk into work tomorrow.. and the 2nd C25K session is Thursday (which I will definately do)...

Anyway, I may leave it there for tonight... As always, comments welcome and appreciated.
Feel free to keep commenting on yesterday's blog as well. Seems to be a topic people are interested in.. on both sides of the debate.

Have a wonderful night.

Gazzy.

Another Monday

Well, as I predicted... I did not walk this morning. After my entry last night, I even loaded some music onto my mp3 player so I'd have something to listen to... but I slept in... maybe I should go to bed earlier!!

Breakfast was Just Right, had a delicious chicken and salad sandwich on grain from Bliss for lunch and a sausage hot pot thing we found in the supermarket for dinner tonight. Again, I had mine with Broc and Beans - David had mashed spuds.

So, doin pretty good with the food stuff I think..

Read a study thing (I've been trying to absorb info on weight loss and crap), and it said that it takes most people 28 days to change their habits. So, today is day 19. But, I think I'm doing pretty well anyways. I'm not trying to avoid things as much as a couple of weeks ago, I just don't want to eat that stuff. But, 28 days of routine should turn that routine into habit.. I found it curious.

Now, c25K. That running thing I was telling ya about. Well... I'm starting tomorrow. Damian (who just loves being mentioned on here!) and I will be doing it together... (He's married, no dirty jokes please). So, we're meeting up tomorrow to do day 1. I'll let you know how we go! Wish I had some wrist sweat bands, headband and some 80's workout gear! Might need to get on ebay for some workout stuff! lol.

I was gonna bitch about rude people on the phone again.. but we all know that people just don't give a crap about other people... it's just crap isn't it, really?

How can we change to world?

The other thing I wanted to dribble about was the unemployment benefit. Now, what I want to say, may annoy some people and people may agree or disagree... but, it's my blog and my opinion and would love to hear whether you agree or not, so leave a comment...

Why is that people on the dole get cheaper movie tickets, cheaper medication, cheaper holidays, etc? I mean, really... Why? I understand if you are unemployed, you still need to pay your bills and rent and all that stuff.. but, why is it that people who are long-term unemployed can visit the mainland cheaper or see a movie cheaper?

I have no issues with people on sickness benefits (legitimately) and their carers getting this kind of benefit. I have no issue with the family assistance stuff... single parents need help, all that stuff is fine. But people that are unemployed for 12months or more, and are not really looking for work... why do they deserve these 'entertainment' benefits?

Why are we not rewarding the people who have a job with these cheaper entertainment and holiday benefits? If you are employed for 3 months, you should get a TaxPayer Card that entitles you to a discount on movie tickets, airfares, Spirit of Tassie tickets and whatever else. Maybe if we cut out these 'fringe' benefits for unemployment and switch it over to Tax Payers, people would be more motivated to gain employment and keep it.

Now, I'm not just saying this because I am employed and I want benefits... I thought the same thing when I was unemployed.. and will think this if I become unemployed again. I just do not understand why people who don't contribute to society (ie. pay tax) get these benefits, while the people like me (and most other people I work with) struggle to make it week-to-week and have to fork out the extra cash for entertainment or a holiday... while the people who live off our tax money, get these things cheaper! I mean, does that sound backwards to you?

Anyway, I think I've said my bit. LOL... I don't even know why I was thinking about it today, but I was. So, I thought I share and get some other people's opinion on the topic.

Oh... By the way... That picture up there is JohnnyDepp as the Mad Hatter in Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland, due for release in 2010..

Alrighty, thats my bit. I'll post tomorrow.
Good Night All.

Gazzy

A Quiet Sunday

A quiet and lazy Sunday... finished up the house work, so now "This house, is Clean..." (Poltergeist, 1982). Breakfast was yummy... I used on of my left over wholemeal Pita Bread things with some salad and ham for lunchy munchy. Now.. dinner was a bit naughty... we had spaghetti. Now, I hardly had any pasta, didn't eat a mass amount of the meat sauce either... So, it's alright. Gonna have some fruit in a bit too...

Now, SMOKING... Mr Peter Jackson. Now, I know, eventually, one day I am going to have to quit smoking... so, what am I waiting for? Well, we all know smoking is addictive. Is that a good enough excuse? I'm starting to think not. Together, we smoke away approx. $100 a week. That's $5200 a year...
Why am I paying $2600 a year to eventually get sick? So, in 10years time... not only would I have spend another $26,000 on cigarettes, I will most likely have some hefty medical expenses and smoking related illness...

This all makes perfect sense in my head.. and I think about it before I light up every smoke, but I still spark it up and suck it down... I guess that means I'm not ready to give it up. I guess we'll wait and see.. Walking and exercise will be easier if I'm not a smoker, so there are so many incentives to give it up... I will get there, I'm sure...

So... the plan for this week is to walk into work tomorrow (knowing me I will sleep in tho!), and starting the C25K program.. I'll keep you posted on what actually happens!

Anyways, I'm gonna sign off... grab an apple out of the fridge and watch a little Buffy...

Good Night!

A Lazy Day Off...

A weekend off... that's nice for a change...

So, I've had a very lazy day. Now, yes... that breakfast picture in Nutri-Grain. Now, they advertise that they are 'Carb loaded'... but i checked.. and the carbs aren't that high... so they were fine!
Lunch was just another sandwich - didn't really feel like lunch, but knew I had to eat something! And dinner was Beef Strog - which turned out kinda runny... but was deliciously slow cooked. I had mine with broc and beans... David had a mass pile of pasta. So, all good. I feel a bit peckish tonight, so I'll probably have 2 fruits I've got in the fridge. Or something.

Now.. I've had a lazy lazy day. Watched a bit a TV, did a bit of washing... bit of housework! Not really exciting but things need to be done...

I still haven't thought of anything to 'collect' for reward things. Anyone got ANY ideas??

Damian (co-worker & occasional 'boss') suggested a website for me. c25k. So, I googled it. And, it's a 9-week program designed to get you from Couch Potato to 5k runner. Hence the C25K. Sounds good to me. Now, being as big as I am... I'm thinking I may need to lose a little more weight before I give this a real decent go. Having said that, I don't want to procrastinate too much. I might do the first week of the program for a week or two to get me started. I will definately keep you posted on this.

I've also been trying to find my old pedometer. I read a thing saying that 10,000 steps a day is considered to be a healthy 'active' lifestyle... I'm curious to see how many steps a day I do.. with and without going for a walk.. to see just how "inactive" I really am.

My motivation comes and goes, I tell ya. After just over 2 weeks of not eating any chocolate, soft drinks or really anything sweet... I'm kinda really craving something sweet. For some strange reason... I have an urge to make some Golden Syrup Dumplings. Yum Yum... Luckily for me we don't have any golden syrup... So, I might have some fruit and hope that satisfies my crave.
The reasoning going on in my head goes something like this:
Fat Garry "Go up to the supermarket, get some syrup and make the freakin dumplings. You're not hurting anybody"
New Garry "Yes I am... I would be hurting myself."
Fat Garry "Not really hurting. You're not causing pain or suffering to another person. No one will think you're a bad person for having dessert."
New Garry "But, I don't really need it"
Fat Garry "But, you want it, don't you? You want it bad!"
New Garry "Yes, I want it..."
Fat Garry "Well, eat it."
New Garry "No."
Fat Garry "Do it. Do it."
New Garry "Noooooooo!!!!"
And then repeat!

lol. It may sound strange, but Fat Garry and New Garry don't get along very well. Fat Garry's kinda an arsehole to New Garry... he's the little red devil that lives in belly going "Feed Me Sweeties!"

Anyways, I've exposed my mental illness and delusions... and before I say something else that should be inside thoughts, I better sign off and say Good Night.

So... Good Night.

Gazzy

Another Late Entry

Hello Everyone!

Sorry I'm late! So.. the daily intake report: Breakfast - mini wheats. Lunch - sandwich. Dinner - A Chinese Beef Stir-Fry, which was pretty average.. And.. that other picture is how NOT to walk your dog! Lazy Bastards!

So, we had a wonderfully short shift at work this morning - lovely. Then I had to hang around at home for a couple of hours for our landlord to do some stuff to the house and shit. Good Times! On the plus side - we're getting a real heater and shit, so no more of this mini-heater bullshit that takes forever to warm a room! Yay Yay Yay! - Could take 2 weeks. Boo! Boo! Boo!

Not much else was happening today.. Another Day, Another 50cents. (It used to be a dollar - but we're in a Financial Crisis, you know).

Let's talk about that.. How does money work? Like... I actually don't know this and would like to. The government's always in debt... yet the government print money.... who gets the money that gets printed? How does that get distributed? And what time and address will that truck be? And, how many guards are there? LOL.... But, seriously.. if someone can tell me, I would appreciate it. Maybe I'm really really dumb for asking that question, but I don't care. I'm curious... And if you never ask, you never find out and I'd still be wondering for 20 years.

OK... Finance talk sucks. Money is such a horrible concept. I understand the need and all that stuff... But, really. So many people struggle and live week-to-week or day-to-day while so many other people are in extreme opposite. I mean, David and I have accumulated some debt.. both before we met and since... and so we live on pretty much nothing - and it really really sucks right now. There is some stuff that will be fixed soon, so things wont be as bad as they are now... but, I really really hope we don't get back to where we are now - cos it sucks. We don't make it week-to-week. We try... we end up borrowing money to survive the last day or so before pay day Every Single Week.

I just wish there was a way to change some things with the world... It's just bizarre that so many people are living in poverty - all of the world - and there are people that get paid Millions of dollars for stuff - Actors, CEOs... Oprah!
Maybe there should be a cap on all income... You can make as many millions of dollars in your first year of being a CEO... and for every year after you can only earn $1,000,000 Maximum. And, the rest of what you "should" have got paid, gets put into research to end the pollution that Your Company has produced to make you that money, Or Poverty Relief. Or Medical Research. OR ANYTHING that helps the HUMAN RACE.

Anyway... Sometimes humanity pisses me off. How the fuck did we all end up so selfish and uncaring? Now.. I don't consider myself selfish or uncaring... I try to do my bit... but, it's hard for me to be generous, because I don't have much to give... But, I just really hope that those people, those CEOs making millions every year give a lot of money to charity... a LOT.

I'd like to think they have a conscience that would make them. I know I would.

Anyway, that's it for tonight. I think I've dribbled long enough. We all have so much potential, but so many of us get stopped because of money, or circumstance and it's frustrating. Let's hope things can only get better...

Alright, I'm really going this time....

Good Night All.

Gazzy.

Blow-Out Day ???

Well.. don't panic yet! I had my mini-wheats for breakfast. Had a savory scroll and coffee from Bliss for lunch... and then came dinner....
It's Thursday, pay day, so traditionally that's take away night. So, instead of take away, I bought some wholemeal pita bread and some salami (i know that's bad - but I didn't have a kilo of the stuff), and some pizza sauce and made a home-made pizza. Chucked on some tomato, onion and mushrooms that I already had at home and some light cheese - not a heap. It was delicious!! I ate about half... felt like I was gonna explode! David had KFC - A dinner for two.

And, thanks to Meagan for suggesting this home-made pizza - it was yum.

So... I know I was bad today, but come on... Could have been a LOT worse. Every other time I've dieted or whatever, Every weigh-in day was Take Away day... So, this is my sorta compromise to myself. Every couple of weeks (as long as the scales say less Not more..) I may have a day like today... So, it's done!

So, you may have seen my shorter post from before... Weigh In Day was a success... Another 1.5kgs out of existence. A total of 3.3kg in the past 2 weeks. Happy with that.

I also started a forum. http://gazzyintazzy.freeforums.org
I started this because I would love for people to start talking to each other about their lives and sharing stories about things. I especially am interested to hear stories about people you've met that have had an impact on your lives (good, bad, funny, whatever). We all don't share enough of ourselves with the people we see everyday. Let's change that. Let's get to know each other, yeah? So, anyway, check it out, join up and post some stories...

So, another day another dollar. Not much else to report on...

Dad suggested that having an incentive to continue may be a good idea. When he was planning a holiday away, he managed to lose a bit of weight beforehand, because he knew he was travelling. So, I've been thinking about rewards. When I think of rewards, I think FOOD. "I've been good all week so I'll reward myself with chocolate" NO!!
I need some rewards that I can give myself at different stages. People have suggested DVDs, Go to the Movies, stuff like that.. .but I usually buy a DVD if I want it, and go to the movies if there's something I really wanna see anyways... So, I was thinking of maybe collecting something...
Something I can buy for every 5 or 10 kilos I shed and that can represent all this weight I've lost. Any ideas on what I should collect????

And, that's about it for tonight.. We're about to watch 'Pirates of the Caribbean3'. Been a while since I watched it... Anyone seen any good movies lately? or any old movies I should check out? I love a good movie... old and new!

Ok. I'm outta here.
See ya on the flip side, homie. G.

The Weekly Weigh In...

Good Morning everyone

Well, we've had another success! Weigh In today was 148kg. That's another 1.5kgs down. That's a total of 3.3kgs since the beginning!

Wonderful!

Just thought I'd let ya know... I'll post tonight!
Have a great day!!

Gazzy

A Forum?

I created a forum so that we can all share our stories and talk about whatever you want.
If you want to join up, visit http://gazzyintazzy.freeforums.org and register.

A Couple of Stiffies!

My legs! I'm talking about my legs being so stiff. They've been sore all day.. too much work yesterday apparently. No, no... not enough every other day. If I did a big walk like that once or twice a week - I wouldn't be sore. lol.. Fuck that!

So, this morning, I had my Special K Advantage again. I know I didn't like it last time, but it's there, and it's healthy so I shut up and ate it, like I was always told as a kid. ("Kids in Africa would kill for a bowl of Special K Advantage." - "Well send it to them, cos I don't want it!")

For lunch, just a sandwich, nothing exciting.. and Devilled Sausages for dinner. I couldn't even eat it all. Ate 1/4 of the rice and 3/4 of the sausages and was stuffed full to the forehead! But, yummy yummy...

So, dad was telling me about this new study thing he read. Now, I'm going to explain this like a 3 year old, cos it's the only way I understand it. Please no jokes about my IQ - lol. Apparently when you've stopped eating heaps of carbs (like I have) it sets your metabolism on Medium, right? Now, if you binge on, say, a McDonald's burger after a week or so, you're body freaks out and goes "Shit! Heaps of carbs! Work, Work, Work!" and sets your metabolism on High. Then, for the next 3 or 4 days, you've stopped eating all those carbs, but you're body's still on High cos it's set to Red Alert after the McDonald's incident of 3 days ago.

Did that make sense? Well, it makes sense to me. Now, having said that that makes sense to me, I am not going on a take away binge anytime soon. What this means to me, is that I can have more carbs than normal one night. For example, I can have spaghetti or lasagne (my fav) or something.

But, I'm hesitant. I'm worried, because sometimes, it takes all my strength not to go to cupboard and steal one of David's chocolates or get that piece of cake from the coffee shop for afternoon tea. Or anything like that. Remember what I was talking about when I started this. Fatty, High Carb and High Sugar Food is addictive - and that's what I'm trying to break. Having a Big Mac or something this soon would ruin everything - at the moment. If I was addicted to cocaine and hadn't had any for 2 weeks - I wouldn't reward myself with a line now, would I? No! Of course Not! So, why would you do that for food?!?!

So, what do I do? My vote is - Fuck the metabolism. Keep away from the Evil Foods of Fatty Death!

Tomorrow is the 2nd Weekly Weigh-In, and I'm nervous again. I did almost kill myself walking yesterday, I have been pretty good with the food this week (parma aside - thanks for that guilt Meagan!-lol). So, we shall see. Fingers crossed. Even if that number only comes down 100grams, I will be happy... 0.1 kg loss is still a loss... But, No Matter What, I will not give up this fight with weight.

"Never Give Up, Never Surrender!"

Remember, I love hearing from everyone, so keep the comments coming.

Gazzy

Leave Me at the Bottom!

Well... I did it. We got the canyon around 11:00am. Walked up to the top on the "20minute" walk. It took us a little longer than 20minutes, but we did pretty good. Beautiful up the top there at the lookout. Then.. we had a look at the sign up the top there, and saw there was a walk down and back up to the car park that was "35minutes". Well, dad suggested we do that.. and I reluctantly agreed feeling pretty good about getting to the top in the first place. Oh god that was a mistake!!

It's almost 600 steps to the bottom... which we did pretty good. The knees felt like they were gonna break or give way. The steps themselves are quite small and they were slippery, so we took our time. I was sweating and sweating. And once we got to the bottom and crossed the little bridge... the challenge to get back up was on! And, I thought I was gonna die!!

My chest was pumping, my heart was racing, I had pain in my shoulders and chest, I could barely breathe. And, I was appalled at myself. I was so shitty at myself for letting myself get so fat and out of shape. It was a major challenge to get back up to the car park, but I did it. (I didn't have much of a choice, really, did I?)... But, it was done. I had done it.

Dad was motivating me all the way... As he said, it's a pretty hard haul up that hill, and quite steep. He said he wouldn't want to do it with an extra 60 kilos on him. And I did. So, I felt pretty good about that.

Mum had packed us a picnic lunch (She's a Good Mum!), so we had egg and bacon sandwiches. Now, that may sound bad, but mum made mine with grain bread... and there was hardly any bacon in the mix. They were delicious!!! We got back home and I was fucked! And, I still am!

For dinner tonight, leftovers from last night, on a hot potato - Delicious! I almost didn't have the spud, but, you know... I'm not on a strict diet - I'm just trying to change my overall eating habits so I'm not filling myself with deep-fried badness and take aways - so a Microwaved potato didn't seem that bad!

So, that's it. I put some photos and a video up from the canyon. That warning sign I've posted a pic of was at the top next to the lookout, and it made me laugh. The little man waving his arms.. and down he goes.

Anyways, we're gonna put Deliverance on and listen to some banjo. So, Goodnight all...

Remember, post any comments or questions, or just say Hi!

Gazzy