Saturday Night....

Hello Everyone...

So, I went back to the dentist yesterday... I think everyone was convinced it was going to be dry-socket (lost blood clot and exposed bone!!)... but, it wasn't. Apparently it just takes me a while to heal... So, they cleaned out the hole and put some analgesic/anti-septic stuff in it to try to eliminate some of the pain. And, I think it worked. No pain today... Yay! I'm pretty convinced that it was infected... because it looked gross and was pretty bad... but the body heals these things itself and I think it was clearing up on it's own, so by the time I got back to the dentist it was kinda better...But, anyway.. they cleaned it out, said these things generally fix themselves.. and then charged me $75.00. Crazy... But, that's the positive part of this story... 

There's another tooth that a filling must've fallen out of a while ago and I've been waiting for the cash to get it fixed... well, what a surprise, I don't have any cash... and with an infection in my mouth... not good. I woke up this morning and noticed that the tooth that needed work, the gum around it is all smooth and tender... so, either the infection decided to spread to the other tooth it could get into... or I'm just very unlucky and it's just a coincidence that this one has started playing up too. Either way.. it's probably another trip to the dentist and another $200 or something - which is kinda impossible, because I had to borrow the money from mum and dad for the first 2 appointments... and I don't really know what I'm going to do...Hopefully it wont get much more painful and I'll just try not to eat for a few days... I don't know..  But for someone who hates and is actually a little bit terrified of the dentist, it seems I might as well move in!

So, anyways...  all this dental talk has made me think about all the stuff I keep putting off. Maybe I should start this year with a complete health check and fix... Quit smoking, start taking vitamins, get to the doctor and get a full check-up thing as well as advice and information on the best way to reach my goals. They always say to consult a physician before undertaking anything at all. Make a check-up appointment with the dentist, to get everything checked and fixed... instead of this: I'm in pain - pull the bastard out system... I swear I wont be able to chew soon! Maybe I should do all this. I mean, it's all for my own benefit... I would have a better understand of how bad a shape my body is in and what I need to do to fix the problems I have. Might take the video camera with me and make a 2010 health doco-video blog for ya all. What do you think? 


Well, David and I are off to the movies tonight with a one of David's friends Daniel and his girlfriend. We're gonna see Avatar... I know, everyone else in the world has seen it.. but, you know... So, I'll let you know what I think of it tomorrow! I'll give it the Gazzy-Review! 


But seriously... I had no idea my teeth were in such bad shape. I mean, I knew they were stained from all the coffee I drink and smoking.. And I'm just thinking maybe I have other health issues I have tried to ignore that I shouldn't. Maybe... 

Having all this pain and discomfort in my mouth though... means I don't want to eat. I'm not hungry enough to go through the pain of chewing... so I guess there another silver lining! Bad one, I know... but still...



Anyways folks... that's it for me tonight. I hope you've all enjoyed your Saturday and I'll be back tomorrow with the Sunday Blog... Good Night...

Gazzy

It's Another Weigh In... Oh My...

Good evening everyone... 

Well, it's Thursday and that means weigh in day! And if you read my last post you will know how pretty crappy my week has been... slack with exercise, not great food choices, overnight shifts at work, fucked up sleeping pattern, tooth removal and days of pain from it and a general feeling of discontent and lethargy. So, I wasn't looking forward to stepping on those scales this morning....

However... I did. And I Was Shocked! 142.3kg... which is a 1.5kg loss! I weighed myself 3 times to make sure. Now, looking back over the week... I think I had a loss because of the bad sleeping patterns because of work and the bad tooth. I haven't really eaten much, it's been painful... I was working all night, sleeping all day... and my tooth was too sore to eat much of anything.. And because I wasn't eating like normal, that's probably why I felt so lethargic all week...So, all I'm saying is... Silver Lining and all that jazz.

So this surprising result for the week has put me back on track for the January Goal. If I can loose just 0.9kg this week, then I've achieved the first goal of the year. I'm not gonna start bookmarking my reward item on ebay - but I'm feeling positive.

 

But I suppose I should talk about the negatives too. My tooth still has not healed properly. Still a bit swollen and god forbid I drink out of my pop-top water bottle, take a drag on a cigarette or kiss! Ouch! So, it's back to the dentist in the morning... which is terrible! I hate the dentist! I have nightmares about sitting in that chair! But these things have to be done and I know it wont be as bad as I imagine... it's not like he's gonna pull out another one! But I've also developed a bit of a grinding habit that's annoying the absolute shit of me! I've never ever ever done it before... but around where the tooth was removed, my teeth must touch differently or something... because I catch myself grinding all the time.. it's very frustrating! Anyways, we'll see how I go.. Fingers Crossed! (I probably won't sleep well tonight - I know, I'm a sooky girlie man!)

Also as I mentioned before, I've started editing a video for this year Halloween party. Oh my god it takes forever to do... But, I'm trying to find out what movies people have the strongest "scary" memories about. Obviously The Exorcist, Elm St, Poltergeist... these sort of classic horror have been the ones people remember... But what about you? What movie resonates the most in your mind when you think of scary movies? Now, please, if you read this at all... please leave a comment to let me know... 

And that's all folks. Thanks for reading... and remember next Thursday's weigh in is the JANUARY RESULT weigh in... Can't believe 2010 is moving this fast already. Won't seem long and it'll be Christmas again. Better start shopping! I'll be back soon folks.

Gazzy

WANTED: Life; must include hobbies, enjoyable well-paying job & fit healthy body

Too much to ask? Probably....

I just get bored... Maybe I should just work more... Then I wouldn't have time to get bored... But, then I'd probably get so frustrated and shitty, I'd end up unemployed in 2 weeks. Can't win huh? I don't know. I think if I did more with my time off maybe I wouldn't feel so unsatisfied with everything. Somehow I've transformed from this person that was surrounded by people all the time, enjoying myself and having adventures... to this guy that goes to work, watches TV and gets fatter and fatter. How do I get the old me back? He was much more fun.
I dunno. 


Anyway, it's been a week since I had my tooth pulled out and would you believe it's still a bit sore and tender and a little bit swollen. Unreal. I don't know why... I've had teeth pulled before and I don't remember it being this sore for this long... I haven't been back to the dentist, because it seems to be a little bit better every day... I just wish it would go away. It's been hurting longer and been more frustrating than the tooth was before he pulled it out. 

I've been absent the last few days because I've been on overnight shifts. Starting work at 10pm-ish and finishing at 6am-ish. The actual work was not too bad, nice and quiet and you're able to have a chat with whoever is working with you... but it's totally thrown my sleep pattern out of whack. I didn't work last night, but I was still awake until around 6am. Crazy. And, of course I set my alarm for 10am hoping that only a couple of hours sleep would make me really tired tonight so I could sleep... but my phone died... and I slept till 12:30. Still not heaps of sleep, but fingers crossed.

So, with the sleeping all day and the working all night... I haven't had a chance to walk much or do anything really. Now I have a day off I'm catching up on housework. Yuk! My eating habits have been odd too... and not good.. so I'm considering this week a write off. I'm positive it will be another gain this week... which means to meet my 3kg January goal, I'm gonna have to be really good with food and exercise for the next two weeks.. Must Must Must!!



Well, I do have a little bit of a hobby... Halloween. I know what you're thinking... it's like 10months away. Well, for those of you that attended the Halloween party last year, I'm sure you can appreciate the time, effort and cost associated with such an event. I've already started planning for the 2010 party and I think it's going to be bigger and better this year. Plus, it gives me something to do and focus on... which is always good. 

Halloween also gives me a weight loss goal. The costume I had last year was fine... but it was a "plus-size" costume. In other words, it was a bit boring... So, if I can shed some kilos I'm hoping I can get a real costume that is much more exciting...

So, that's about it for tonight... I'll be back...

Gazzy

Weigh In

Sorry Guys... I know weigh in day was yesterday... But I'm here now and here's the result...
143.8kg... Which is a 0.9kg gain. Now, I posted the other day that I was expecting a gain this week so this is not surprising to me at all. I know I've been slack this week and this is the result that comes with being slack.

I'm focusing on monthly results. The healthy recommendation for weight loss is 1 kg a week... so my monthly goals are 3kgs a month. So, on the last weigh in of every month, I hope to be 3kgs lighter... and as for rewards and punishments. I've decided to collect Star Trek Hallmark Ornaments as a reward. So, if I loose 3kgs by the end of the month I can buy one of these ornaments.... and if I have a gain 2 months in a row, I have to sell one. What do you think?

My horrible experience in dentistry that I talked about before... well, the tooth may be out... but it's still swollen and sore. I've been eating only soft and small foods and taking Advil every 4 hours to get rid of the pain... I'm hoping it goes away soon otherwise I'll have to go back to the dentist on Monday I guess. Don't know if it's supposed to take this long to clear up... but I guess we'll see.


Alrighty folks... that's it for tonight. I'll be back when I get a chance. Work is a bit crazy at the moment. 

Take Care

Gazzy

Pre-Weigh In Update.... Oh the Pain!

Hey everyone... 

Sorry I've been absent... I had a really bad toothache which left me feeling like crap... and work... and then I went to the dentist yesterday and he ripped the little bugger out... but my tooth-hole is still very sore and swollen. Fingers crossed it's not infected... I hate the dentist would hate to have to go back. I have nightmares about those people. So, I'm still pretty sore and haven't done much.

Eating wise, not too bad. Not great, but no terrible. Since yesterday I've only been eating things trying to avoid the left side of my mouth. Last night we had gnocci and it was delicious! Tonight we're having Honey Mustard Chicken. So, food intake pretty average and I haven't walked or anything... So, my guess for tomorrow's weigh in is a GAIN... Hopefully not way too much... But, still...

I haven't been focused on anything the last few days... I've been pottering around the house, washing dishes here, tidying up there... and catching up on my DVD set of Fringe that I've had forever and never got around to finishing... well, now it's finished.. Was Good. 

So, I just thought I should check in and update you guys as to what's been happening... and I'll be back tomorrow for the weigh-in day... 

Take care guys! 

Gazzy

First 2010 Weigh In Day!!!

Good Evening....

Well, it was another day of work yesterday.. Blah! It's so terrible... I end up with a headache every day and swear all day... it's such a depressing job... It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't find stupidity so annoying... I mean, really... I'd be surprised if 50% of our customers could tie their own shoe laces! And why is that whenever you see photos or commercials or anything that shows a call centre worker, they're smiling like they're having the Best Ever Time... I've working in 2 different call centres and I know people that work or have worked in others... and No One looks like this (picture on the left) No one enjoys staring at a computer screen listening to people complain or bitch or cry or yell abuse or whatever. Even the rare 'nice' customers are gone too fast to enjoy... Frustrating...  We look more like the picture on the right... It's a thankless, tiresome, frustrating job. But anyways, moving on....


So today of course is Thursday... and that means today is the FIRST WEIGH IN OF 2010!And... 142.9kg... and that is a loss of 1.5kg for this week!!! Yay!! Excellent... 


I think I've written this before, but I've starting keeping track of weight loss from the start again. Because, having lost 10kg+ I wasn't caring if I put weight on every week.. because in my head a 1kg loss still meant I was 9kg down.... so I wasn't stressing about gaining... Which is bad.. So I'm starting agai, with a focus on Weekly/Monthly loss, instead of weekly/total. I think this will keep me more focused on actually loosing weight every week. 

Now, you know I've talked about religion on here a few times... well, here's a photo of a bus in Hobart. These new Atheist signs have been put on the sides of Metro Buses in Hobart. I don't know if they plan to extend them to other areas or not, but I think it's a great idea. Some people have been against them as you may imagine... but I don't see the harm. I've seen religious propaganda on television and in print all over the place... especially around Christmas... So where is the harm in having a little Atheism around the place? Anyway, I'm all for it and believe that this kind of ad may spark a debate about religion and the beliefs people have... And if religion is all it's cracked up to be, then it can handle some competition and questions, surely?


OK... So food and exercise and stuff... well, it's been a couple of days so I won't go into too many details. I haven't been the BEST diet-wise for the last week. I haven't gone crazy on KFC or anything, but for example I had left-over lasagne with chips. Now, that might sound bad... but David did have KFC and I resisted and had left-overs instead... so, you know... I haven't had chocolate - but instead of avoiding evening snacking I've replaced chocolate with those Weight Watchers dessert things - which are SO SO yummy... but in all honesty, I have one... and then an hour or so later I have a second... But, again... gotta be better than a full block of Cadbury Snack right??


I've also skipped a couple of meals... which I know is bad... I bought a couple of tubs of yogurt to keep in the fridge and I've got some natural muesli bars (which are SO good) and some apples and shit too. I figure if I keep this stuff in the house, when I get desperate for something to eat, at least I'll be eating healthier...


There's a blog I read a lot called Escape From Obesity. It's written by a woman in the US called Lyn who just really gets it. Sometimes she will say something about the way she feels or why she does something and she is so spot on it's like she's living in my head. She's very motivational. Anyway, she has started, on her blog, a Habit-A-Week Challenge. Basically the idea is that instead of changing every bad habit you have and trying to get new healthier habits all at once, to change ONE habit a week. It may seem slow to some, but at the end of 16 weeks you have 16 new healthy habits. I think this is a great idea and I'm going to do this. Her first challenge is WATER. So, I need to determine exactly how much water I need to drink every day and how I'm going to measure it and make sure that I drink it... and she's got some wonderful ideas to keep up motivation and etc etc... So, she's good... and I'll keep you posted on the challenge.


And that's it for now... I hope you've enjoyed tonight edition of Gazzy in Tazzy.. and I will post again soon!

Gazzy

Dress Your Size!!!

You know what I'm talking about. Those plus-size people that either don't realise what size clothes they should be wearing or just don't care... We've all seen them in town, in shops and some of us may even be related to some of these people.

Dress sense doesn't come in a size! I was always under the impression that people wore clothes that made them look and/or feel good. If you're wearing something like the people in these photos (from People of Walmart) and you're walking around town thinking you look awesome - well, there is something wrong with you (other than bad taste).

I always make sure my clothes fit me... and always try to buy nice clothes. I wouldn't want to subject an unsuspecting public to displays of my fat and fur! I try to find clothes that are comfortable and that cover me up.. If I looked like the guy in my banner on the left - I would probably try never to wear clothes - but I look more like the guy on the right!

And there's nothing wrong with being plus-size. Some people prefer people of size. More to cuddle I guess... but even those people know when someone is dressed well or not. I always think the way someone dresses expresses a sort of self-opinion. If I saw someone who is always dressed in crappy old clothes, I would think of that person as not caring about themselves. I would assume that person doesn't make an effort because they feel it isn't worth it. Am I wrong?

I personally would dress better if I could find clothes that actually fit me. And that is one of the reasons I want to change my lifestyle. I don't like the fact that I can't walk into Just Jeans or Jay Jays (which aren't exactly up-market stores) and buy something that I like that makes me look good. I'm reduced to shopping the Mr. Big section of Target. Now they do have some decent clothing for the plus-size man, but they're still not like regular-size clothes. For some reason they think that Big People don't care about there clothes... and that's the whole point... They don't seem to!

So check out Walmart People because these couple of pics I've added are just a tiny sample of the kind of stuff they've got on there. Some people love it and some people really hate it.. but I enjoy looking at the massive variety of strange that walks through the doors of Walmart USA!

"Yes, Garry, but what happened today?"

 

Fine... well, I had the last savoury muffin in the house for brunch with a few cups of coffee. And then I did some online catch up... Facebook, Emails etc. And then I went for a walk at Romaine with B for about 45 minutes around the pond thing. Was nice... Home for coffee and gossip and then a little housework. Chicken Burritos for dinner tonight... Yum Yum. I also did some online recipe research to get me in the mood to cook. The plan is to cook on my days off and freeze some stuff so I'm not as tempted to buy take away because it's easier! We'll see... I've made this plan before and never got around to doing the actual cooking... but we can only plan and try, right. So, if you've got a recipe or know a good website or cookbook... leave me a comment! :)

After writing all that stuff above about nice clothing... I may have got onto Ebay & a couple of clothing sites to have a look... and I so wish I was able to buy some of that stuff! Maybe I should buy something I really really like and work to fit into it.. I'll probably just get depressed I can't fit in it and eat chocolate cake to make me feel better! Who knows... I have clothes that don't fit now and they're not very motivating... but they're also not that nice! Well, you know... they're not new.

I guess there is no magic answer to this. Every day I make a choice to do the right thing or the wrong thing. I need to find the power within to choose the right thing... Every Day. And I will. I hope I will...

Gazzy

New Year's Resolutions

Well, it's 2010. I know I'm getting old because I was class of 2000 when I finished Year 12, so it's been, like, a decade since school! A whole frickin' decade!

So this business of having New Year's Resolutions... Well, I guess I already decided what it was going to be 6 months ago when I started the blog. Lose weight, get fitter and healthier and experience life more... So, that's my resolution for 2010... to make it so.

To start with, for the first time in 5ish years, we did something for New Years. We didn't go out and get pissed, but we had a couple of great friends over for a roast lamb dinner, drank some wine and tried to watch fireworks from the backyard (no, not really... but we tried).

New Year's Day = Work. And it was a long, long day...

Yesterday, I met up with dad and my brother and went for a walk at Ferndene Reserve (just outside of Penguin). The place was nice... there were a few uprooted trees and shit on the path though... but was good. But these walks, like Leven Canyon all that time ago, just goes to show how much more work I have to do. I was breathing heavy and sweating like crazy so quickly... Was still good to be active and I spent most the afternoon with my folks in Ulverstone. 

And that would bring us to today... And, again... Work. An early start for me too, 6:30am. Which might not sound too bad to some... but I hate working that early... Me likes Sleep! But, I survived.

Speaking of work.. why are people so rude? I mean, we are there to help... what benefit do they think being rude and abusive to us is going to make? When I'm asking someone to help, even if it is their job, I'm always polite and grateful - sometimes overly... I could never be so rude to someone who is helping me. 

But, Anyways... Back to me!

So I have been doing stuff.. "But what the hell are you eating?" I can hear you asking... Well, you don't wanna know. I haven't been good... and I've got any excuse you want to hear. Would you believe me if I told you I was waiting for pay day to buy some decent healthy food? Would you believe me if I said I'm so broke it was cheaper to buy junk? Would you believe me if I said god told me to eat junk food? What excuse will you believe? The truth is I haven't had the motivation to be good and without the motivation to do it... It's not really worth trying. I will... But I don't want to say... This is it... Today is It! And then fail... I need to be certain that I can resist the temptations around me and make a real go of it...




And on that note, I've been thinking I should bite the bullet and join the gym (or as an alternative, there was a flyer in my letterbox about a personal trainer than comes to your house). I know I always seem to be broke and these things cost money - but it could also work as a motivation. I've paid money I don't want to waste... and I've got a trainer or someone to help motivate me and show me what I should be doing...  So, what do you think? Suggestions? Ideas?

"Stop Eating Crap, Fattie!"

I guess it's a little hard because I'm not too stressed. I would like to be fitter and healthier, but my actual size is only a problem for me... and a lot of the time I'm too weak to tell myself No! I'm comfortable at work, with my friendships and importantly, in my relationship... So I don't feel pressure to change the way I look for anyone but myself. And it's hard to tell yourself not to eat something you want... and it's hard to tell yourself to do something you don't want to do.

So I need a real plan with real action... and I'm think the gym/trainer might be the ticket. Or weight watchers or jenny craig or something similar... I don't know... But I need to decide and I need to do it... Soon...

Gazzy

It's Almost 2010 People!

Hello Everyone...

I'm sorry the posts are pretty random and slack lately... been a busy time of year I guess. I will be back properly in the New Year!

I missed the last weigh in day and decided to just skip it for the week. But today is weigh in day... and the result... 

144.4kg... so that means total loss since June is down to 6.9kgs... Not great at all. But not unexpected...


So, that's how I'm starting 2010... as a 144kg man. I'm determined to start 2011 in double digits instead of triple...


I guess it's around this time of year that everyone makes their resolutions to be healthier, get fitter and get in shape... and I'm taking advantage and getting on the 2010 motivation train. Hopefully it will last longer than a month like a lot of other resolutions over the years....

You may have noticed a new banner on the top of the blog... it's a temp... I'm not great at photo editing and stuff... And I'm not too impressed with the effort I put in on that one.. So hopefully soon I will find something decent to replace that expresses what I want this blog to be... 

I got a new video camera for Christmas... so expect to see some little videos every now and then. I considered blogging via video... but I think I can express myself better in writing and I think I'll be more honest sticking with writing... But I will make little videos every now and then... Speaking of which... here's one I made of 2009... Those of you in my Facebook circle of friends may have already seen it... Let me know what you think...






A couple of nights ago, David and I went and saw Paranormal Activity at the cinemas. There's been a lot of hype about it being the most terrifying movie ever... and blah, blah... and I'm a huge fan of scary/horror movies and was excited to see this 'home video' style film.... Well... I was disappointed. I mean, I enjoyed the movie a lot... I really liked it, but it wasn't scary. I was hoping This would be the movie to creep me out... I was hoping to have nightmares and not be able to sleep.. but I slept like a baby that night... Anyways, if you like those kind of movies, watch it... it's good... 


So... Now I'm gonna leave you with some movie trailers of films I'm looking forward to in 2010. There are more than this... but a lot of them don't have trailers yet... Hope you enjoy!

Have a wonderful New Year celebration folks... Be Safe and Enjoy Yourself and I'll see you next year! 

So long 2009!

Gazzy

I Love You Phillip Morris



The Crazies



The Wolfman



Alice in Wonderland



Nightmare on Elm Street



Shrek Forever After



Prince of Persia



Toy Story 3

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas....

It's Christmas Eve! Holy Crap the year went so fast...

It's Thursday today of course, which means Weigh In Day... but I totally & utterly forgot. I always weigh in Thursday mornings before breakfast... and I was preoccupied this morning and forgot till about 4 this afternoon. Bugger... so I'll either skip this week or I'll weigh in tomorrow... we'll see how I go tomorrow!

So, Christmas Eve is here... I guess I'm a bit of a downer around this time of year. I don't mean to bring people down when they're excited about Christmas, but I just honestly do not understand it. And so I have a habit of asking people why the celebrate Christmas and try to put across my "Bah! Humbug!" ways. So people get sick of me asking 'why'? It just seems to me that Christmas brings out the worst in people. I had the unfortunate duty of going to the supermarket today... and in the over-crowded mad rush, not 1, not 2 but 3 people ran their trolleys into me because they weren't paying attention or didn't care. And not one of those people apoligised for doing so or even acknowledged my existence. In fact one woman looked at me like it was my fault. Sorry, I didn't know standing there in plain sight was such a bad thing to do! Was I Surprised? Not really... it's Christmas.

I think Scrooge was right. What is the true meaning of Christmas?

Most of the people around me are so excited for Christmas. They either have children or are grandparents having Christmas with their extended families. I can understand why Christmas would be 'magical' and 'special' to families with children. I can sorta get that. Children wait for Santa to come and to see them excited and in awe and wonder of how it all happened... I get it, I really do... but for those of us who don't have and don't plan on having children... Christmas is a little overrated. Don't get me wrong, it's nice to spend time with family... but I also do see my family quiet often. I'm not 'going home for the holidays' or anything...

And half the people out there are actually celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ.... There some trouble to start with... but let's not get into that right now... I think I talk too much about religion on here... I'll have to try and bite my tongue/fingers and edit myself a bit more...

I don't really know what I'm trying to say... If Christmas is a wonderful time for you, that's wonderful and I hope you enjoy your festivities and drink and be merry. 'Make the Yuletide Gay'. And for those of you that aren't too keen on the whole affair... Don't worry... It'll all be over in just 24hours...and you did get the day off work...

Merry Christmas Everybody!

Gazzy

"God Bless Us, Every One."

Charles Dickens, A Christmas Carol