I wasn't going to post anything until the video was ready to go (hopefully next week).. but I've been away too long...
I wanted to talk about some stuff. I was talking to someone the other day and they asked me why I wanted to loose weight. I laughed.. thinking, isn't it obvious - I'm fat! And then I thought about it some more...
I want to loose weight for many reasons. Firstly, for my health. I don't want to die young. Secondly, Vanity. Everyone wants to feel attractive right? And the third reason was a bit deeper than that... I feel trapped by my body.
My weight has become a hard shell that I'm cocooned in. It's affected my self confidence, it's affected my ability to physically move, it's affected the way I feel about other people, about social situations, about so many different things. Some are visible to the outside world around me.. some are visible to people I allow inside the walls.. and some are only visible to me.
The challenge ahead is about breaking down those walls and accepting the world outside. The challenge isn't only about weight, size & fitness.. it's also about becoming the person I want to be and learning and growing and all those things that Life is about.
They say confidence is key.. for me, that key could unlock some heavy bars and free me from the very critical self I've become.
That's really all I wanted to say.. I know my blog posting have been erratic and sparse.. but this new video blogging has really got me a little motivated about the whole thing. I'm really putting myself into this video and I'm being very honest and open with it. I'm hoping there are some surprises in there for people.. and some emotion and some humour. I hope you will all check it out when it's up and running..
I'm trying to put together a list of various 'Weekly Challenges' that I can do. I want them to be a variety of nutrition challenges, physical challenges or challenges that get me out of my shell or self-rewarding.. If you have any suggestions at all.. No matter how silly they may sound or outrageous.. I will consider anything...
OK.. So, please, leave a comment with suggestions or comments about anything and everything.. And, keep checking back.. :) I'll be back soon. I promise.
Gazzy
